I know it’s difficult to do at times but a smile makes me feel so much better. I’m posting this to each and every one of you in the hope you will smile too 😊
#MightyTogether #Positivity
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Good morning all! It's Monday morning around 6am here in NY. I slept better than I expected so that's a big plus! I still feel numb over the divorce papers that my narcissist husband served me with last Tuesday. I realized I need to journal about it as I seem to be staying stuck in that feeling of uncertainty. I have already allowed myself to mourn the loss of my husband but I haven't really allowed myself to grieve over my future. I am down right scared about the future. I have a hundred questions and thoughts running through my mind as I'm an overthinker. I think I am still in awe that over the entire relationship. I played my part. I am an addict in recovery. I'm going on 2 years July 2nd 2024. So my addiction played a role in this. However, I still can't get over the fact that I allowed him to mess with my mental state with his lies and cheating ways. It really took a toll on me for awhile.
I'm currently on disability at the moment for my bipolar but I am thinking of getting a full time job. I don't think I can make it alone with just disability and a part time job. The bills are coming in and I still haven't made a budget. It's like everything is so surreal.
Here's to today as we only have the present moments. It's up to me to decide if I want to sit in my shit or get up and start my day. I choose to get up and enjoy the day! For once I have a choice in my life and it feels amazing 😍 #NarcissisticPersonalityDisorder #BipolarDisorder #monday #Smiling
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Thank-you for caring. I need/want to be useful. All my years and experience with my mental “foibles” kicks in for the most part and I can deal with life on life’s terms....but some days, weeks, etc....YIKES! Thanks again for reaching out. Makes me feel a part of more than my disease. 🙂 #Smiling
Ok ok I know I know
But I had to its Monday and it's funny you know
😁😀😉😉😉🤣😂😅😉😉😉❤😆😆😆😆 #Laughitsgood #Smiling #Friends #Family #Fun #Mondaymadness #Notrudenever #laughterisgoodmedicine #funnystuff
Good Morning Family
Have you had you cuppa yet today?☕
Just checking I dont want to make you angry 🤣🤣🤣
Coffee has it uses even the cup apparently 🤣☕
Keep smiling Mighty Family laughter is great for the soul.
Love n hugs Tj
❤🤗😘🌸💮💐 #Giggles #CheckInWithMe #giggleswithafriend #coffee #minions #Smiling #Lovenhugs #checkonyourneighbours #Stayinghome #positivementalattitude #Bekind #Selflove #Kindness #Chronicpainwarrior
On good days it is easy, I don't really have to think about it.
On regular days it's a bit hard and I have to remind myself to do it, but I can manage.
On bad days it feels almost impossible, like I have no energy left for this simple task.
What a weird thing isn't it? That such a simple thing can become so complicated?
Not being a person who smiles a lot but wanting to become one. It’s more difficult than one might think. I think non smilers have something deep down that needs-a-fixin, but it’s hard to know what that is. I think to smile and emote joy and happiness is a vulnerable thing for some people and it feels like a loss of control. It sounds strange but I think smiling requires a stoic person to let go and let someone else take control of the emotional environment. It’s a form of submission to the things that offer joy, and though it seems like an easy and desirable choice, there seems to be some deep “default mode” that wells up and wants to say, “that’s not funny/delightful enough.” As though something has to reach some high standard to break the internal feeling of a “clenched fist.” I want to have the lowest standards of what evokes positive emotions instead of holding it in. It feels absurd not to just let myself be impacted by happy things. For me, to react at all is to give up control so it’s mostly those I’m very close with that can make me laugh and feel happiness. I’m sick of this dynamic in myself. I want to laugh and smile at everything. Keeping a tight lid on emotions is not beneficial. I think Family Systems work might help. To say, “hey (part of my brain that resists smiling) if we could just smile at everything and experience joy and laughter safely, what would you rather do instead?”
My father passed away last month, I could not shed a tear, but now I go to the church and say a little prayer. I know he’s in a better place you see, for he had cancer in the fourth degree. Sometimes life just isn’t fair at all, to live so long and to die so wrong. Fair well Papa, until we meet again 🙏 Love, Mary Elizabeth ♾ ##cryingontheinside
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The reason to walk with your head up! You can't receive or give a smile, lookin at the ground. You can't see any reason to smile, lookin at the ground.
#smile #MightyTogether #Smiling #reasons
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