Why am I like this?
My #nervepain is flared up. It’s not horrible, but it’s distracting and at the point where it’s affecting me.
But in a way I did it to myself. It had been getting worse anyway, but I pushed myself too hard at the gym and now it’s bad.
The thing is, it wasn’t an accident. I knew I was pushing myself too hard. I knew the smart thing would be to stop and rest. But I forced myself to do it. In part because I was having a good time. I like seeing how strong I’m becoming. But part of it was that I don’t want to use my chronic pain/permanent injury as an excuse. I would feel like a quitter if I let myself stop. I would feel like I was taking the easy way out and like my arm was a limitation.
I wish I could learn to accept myself and my limitations. I wish I could learn to see myself as just as worthy even if I let myself quit when it’s beneficial to me.
I also wish I could take a sick day without feeling weak.
#BrachialPlexusInjuries #Chronicpainwarrior #MentalHealth