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    What people don’t see

    People only see part of it. They see the out bursts and the negative side effects but, they do not see the rest. They do not see it when I cry. The internal struggle that happens constantly within me. How much energy it takes to just breathe.

    You’re happy that I am nice instead of mean, or that I kept my mouth shut….but you do not know what that cost me. It costs me my sanity most days. You get mad because I get quiet and just say one or two words, you don’t get that inside I am raging and I do not want to say the wrong thing. That I want to react, and it is taking all of me not to do the bad thing.

    I am in constant turmoil. I am damned if I do and damned if I do not. What am I supposed to do? You want to know how I am feeling then it is like I am getting I to trouble for feeling that way. You get tired of going through the same shit over and over again…you only get that part of the time. I deal with it ALL the time. I get tired of feeling.

    I put on a smile, make people laugh, because I hope that they never feel even half as much as I do. I am miserable with all the conflicting thoughts inside of me. I don’t do anything with my life because I no longer know what to do, what I should do, what I am supposed to do. If I do something I’ll end up disappointing at least one person. It is better to not try and disappoint everyone.

    People don’t get it, the constant “on” inside. This isn’t just a monologue, there are literal fights that happen. Rational vs irrational. Good vs bad. Act vs don’t act. And on and on. And that isn’t even adding in my other mental health issues. Everything is always constant and reinforcing everything else…people think they understand, and they try to, but they don’t fully understand how it is.

    #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #miserable #alone #MentalHealth #Ugh

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    Favorite person….I hate having one.

    Today is just a struggle day. Whether it is from the anxiety, splitting, dysthymia with a current depressive episode, adhd, binge eating, abandonment…..couldn’t sleep last night because of anxiety. The few hours I did get, when I woke up the anxiety level was still high and I just wanted to cry. Okay…I have cried a few times. Any amount of tears is crying for me, I used to be, as my family called me, “a heartless bitch.” I miss being oblivious to feelings.

    Every since my male FP gained a new female friend…I always feel in flight or fight mode. Most days I can ignore it easily., others not so much. I feel like I’m being replaced. It doesn’t mean I feel like he will abandon me, but that he is putting someone over me.

    How I was taught love, is by attention. If you have someone’s attention they love you. If not? They don’t.
    #struggleisreal #hurting #Crying #Ugh #FavoritePerson

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    A much needed vent please! #venting

    I haven’t been here very long, less than a week actually…had my first conversation today.

    I thought this was a safe place and people would understand triggers and stuff. That when I say no this will cause a trigger or for me to associate those feelings with them….

    Shouldn’t that end the conversation? Why would you try to persuade that person to do what you want instead of what you clearly laid out as a no?

    Am I just what people think they can persuade/manipulate into doing what they want? It has happened so many times, just this week. I am about done with it all!

    Sorry…hope it was okay to vent for a moment…

    #venting #frustrated #Ugh #Whatisgoingon

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    #Ugh Mother's Day Weekend

    #PTSD ,#Anxiety ,#Bipolar depression,#Fibromyalgia ,#chronic pain,#Psoriatic and osteo arthritis,
    Birth mom was not emotionally, mentally available to me. I was born 3 months early 70 yrs ago so was very sickly. She had 3 sons already and I was a lot of work .
    My parents had 4 more kids, last one- the baby girl. She could do nothing wrong in mom's eyes.
    I was a tomboy and sister girly girl.
    Further separating myself and mom.
    I found refuge in mom's who's kids I did day care for. I was accepted and appreciated by outside mom's !!!

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    × " I Was Trying To Enjoy My Day Off " × #Ugh

    × " So It Seem's That The Male's In This House Don't Bother To Clean Up The Bathroom....And Litterly Wait Until They Run Out Of Bathroom Towel's To Shower With. These Towel's Reeked Badly Of Damped Wet. And Nevermind Not Cleaning The Bathroom That They Use Also. It's Alway's Me Cleaning It. And The Stupid Excuse's That I Keep Getting Are " WELL WE WORK ALL DAY...SO WE DON'T HAVE ANY TIME TO DO ANYTHING. " I Call Bull On This Constant Excuse For The Trash...The Cleaning Of The House That They Live In. And I Alway's Call Them Out On It. They Just Don't Care. Nor Feel Embarrassed When People Come Over To Use The Bathroom. The Guess Alway's Go To Use My Sister's Master Bathroom. Like Fuck Tell Them To Clean They Litterly Stay In The House All Day. Because They All Work From Home. They Waited Until I Was Off For Me To Clean. I'm Washing These Stupid Towel's. Because My Sister Is Alway's Asking Me To Clean The Shared Bathroom. All The Time. Next Time These Towel's Will Remain In The Hamper It's Been 3 Week's. ☆ S. K. ☆

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    * Internal Screaming * 😭🤬

    <p>* Internal Screaming * 😭🤬</p>
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    I’m back ! #MightyTogether

    <p>I’m back ! <a class="tm-topic-link mighty-topic" title="We Are #MightyTogether" href="/topic/mightytogether/" data-id="5b3fe455d256da00ae620eb9" data-name="We Are #MightyTogether" aria-label="hashtag We Are #MightyTogether">#MightyTogether</a> </p>
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    It's a non stop mosh pit in here pal... nice try

    <p>It's a non stop mosh pit in here pal... nice try</p>
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