ugly

You can vent too me if u want too..🤍#worthless #ugly #imagineBeingAburden

Genetics something no one has control over. Yet it is the one thing that determines what we look like. For so many people, they are ridiculed and told they are ugly for something they have no control over. For so many the definition for ugly is based upon the exterior features of someone, the one thing we have no control over. For so many of these people that are called ugly, they hurt inside, but so many still exhibit more inner beauty than anyone with exterior beauty. True beauty comes from within yet so many forget this. It is a scientific fact that people that date or marry based upon inner beauty have less instances of cheating and divorce than those that marry or date just for exterior beauty. In my years, I have forever been ridiculed for my looks and often told I was the ugliest person I the world and some have been so mean to tell me that I am too ugly to look at. So many people think that attractiveness shaming is only toward women, and men should just “man up” and not take being called ugly to heart. I don’t care what gender you are it still hurts the same to being told you are ugly when you have no control over. For so many years I worked tons of hours to be able to get myself plastic surgery so I would no longer be told I was ugly. I just wanted to look average, I wasn’t going for movie star looks. The day I made the appointment to get a consultation, I asked a friend at work to switch me shifts so I could go. Naturally they asked why I needed to switch, so I told them. Their response was no matter how much plastic surgery I got it wasn’t going to change my appearance enough to not be ugly. So that night I dwelled on it and finally let my thought get the best of me and I decided to cancel the appointment because according to my friend it would be a waste. For too long I accepted what people told me: that I was ugly, and bald, and scrawny. Despite all this I still thought I had a large amount of inner beauty that someone someday would see that. Someone once told me that I am not the type of person people fall in love with instantly, that I am more of an acquired taste that takes months to grow on people. When I get clarity I realize how much this has affected me my entire life and how much it has affected my past dating experience and how much it will affect my current and future ability to find a relationship. So, I have added my picture to this post simply as a way to deal with the mental impact.

#ugly #MentalHealth #BipolarDisorder #Bekind

Just sad having my love and energy ignored and met with indifference, and struggling to focus on work because of it. Feeling like I'm failing on every level of my life, and letting every amazing opportunity I have (professional and personal) slip through my fingers by not managing myself well. Sigh.

I love you people and I hope all you beautiful, brave, kind, vibrant souls are having a sweeter, kinder day than me and are feeling loved and worthy. 🌻❤️

#unworthy #sad #Sadness #FeelingAlone #Anxiety #Depression #Spoonie #Spoonies #amihere #ugly #BodyDysmorphicDisorder #BDD