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I’ve had an eating disorder and body image issues since as long as I can remember. I’ve been fat, average size and really quite small but always thinking that I am fat and gross. I am now fat again and still feel disgusting. But that’s the problem. Fat doesn’t equal disgust because if it did I would have felt beautiful when smaller and I didn’t. It’s all a load of bollocks.
So, I’m determined to work on feeling beautiful and not losing weight or getting fit. Everyone around me ultimately thinks that you must be fit and healthy to love yourself. They may not outright say that but I hear well enough. People’s bodies have nothing to do with anyone else, but people love to project. I’m sick of it.
I’m not optimistic that the world and society will get any better, in any way possible but, I can for myself. #BodyImage #fat #Selflove #EatingDisorders #Confidence #Autism #EatingDisorderRecovery

TW Mentions of fat-shaming, swearing, bugs, some all caps, misgendering, exclusionism #venting
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Seriously, why does this damn society seem to think that just because you look overweight instantly leads to believing they have health problems or the only ones capable of health problems? You can look skinny, or average, or look really healthy (even have a bunch of muscles!) and can - still - have health problems regarding weight or how you eat.

Now I’m remembering someone in 2018 who just came up to me and was very kind and told me their way of how they lost weight. I was just sitting there, minding my own business. I thought that they were being very nice and just giving advice, and now I feel like a fucking fool because it was JUST BECAUSE I LOOKED OVERWEIGHT!

Today, it honestly doesn’t help that when I’m told how I should eat or exercise, I get imposter syndrome all over again. I’m an adult. I already suffer from anxiety and despise this ridiculous judgemental ignorant world. I know I’m overweight. When I’ve had enough of life, I have the urge for comfort food. I know what I’m eating isn’t really that healthy, I admit that, and I’ve always TOLD myself that I should eat healthy, not to look skinnier, but to at least be healthier, and had even made plans to cut out some thing I should eat.…it’s hard. I have a lot of shit going on right now. Does society even understand that?!

I’m already stressed that the weather is already getting warmer here than I like, which means more bugs (flies, gnats) and possibly fleas again, so I’m trying to plan the best way to make this problem not so irritating including doing things that my sister continuously says that I shouldn’t do which also fucking irritates me to max (tying the garbage bags… it keeps the gnats away and I even SAID that I’ll buy more bags for us). Last summer was horrible and I do NOT want it to come. Spring is also about to betray me as well.

I am non-binary and have severe social gender dysphoria and hate being misgendered as a fucking “she”, which means I mostly stay inside all the time because of how painful it is.

I suffer from trust issues because of how much the world is a piece of garbage. “Cringe” this, “snowfl*king” that, “faking” this, seriously. Why.

My sister’s kids are on spring break and their loud footsteps irritate my autism whether or not I like to admit that.. trying to not to seem like I hate them (which I don’t, I love them!!). And all I’m trying to do is to get myself CALM.

Those are just four things. There are many more I can list. So even trying to be healthy is a struggle either because of poor mental health or that I’ve given up at that moment. I want to live… but it’s to eat healthy or exercise because of all of this crap. Does society even understand that?!

#MyAutismIsNotADisorder #Fatshaming #fat #Overweight #Anxiety #SocialAnxiety #ImposterSyndrome #DearSociety #nonbinary #EatingDisorders #EatingIssues #eating #EatingHealthyIsNotEasy #MentalHealth #LGBTQIA #BeingHealthyIsNotEasy #sad #BodyShaming #BodyImage

× " Sooo When I Was A Kid I Was Forced To Eat Huge Plate's.. Of Food.. Soo That's Where My #Anorexia Began.. My Mother Would Alway's Over Served Plates Of Food... So I Didn't Like Being Called.. #fat #Chunky .. Etc.. Plus It's Also Where I Was Developing My #Anxiety #Depression ... I Wouldn't Eat Much And Would Make Myself Puke Until I Ended Up In The ER One Night... I'm Happy To Say That I'm Somewhat Free... From This Even Though Now I Litterly Watch My Weight And How Much I Eat Sadly... But I'm Happy At My Current Weight.. And As For My Look's I Have Never Considered Myself As A Beautiful Person... I Hate When Men Tell Me That I'm Beautiful To Them... Because In My Mind I'm Translating That They Just Want To Sleep With Me... And Try Not To Get To Know Me Kinda Thing... I Look Like I'm Alway's Pissed Off And The Truth Is That It's Not True... My Sleep Deprived And In Pain That's All... But I'm Also A Work In Progress... " × Sincerly, ☆ S.K. ☆ #Openingup

Hi, my name is Celisa. I’m new to The Mighty and look forward to sharing my story. #fat #queer #ChronicPain

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loneliness and depression has caused me to just eat and crave sweets. when im really deep in depression i cant get out of bed. i dont like exercising at all. so im stuck. fat, sad, ugly and alone. at least my furbabies love me. dont know what id do without them. #lonely #fat #MajorDepressiveDisorder #ugly

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#Depression #Anxiety #bodydismorphia #fat #lonely

The feelings are all consuming, I'm lonely, im depressed, im fat, im depressed because of chronic pain and it makes me fat , i want to exercise but its painful. I wanna scream, i wanna cry instead I just curl up into a ball and try to shut everything out.

Is killing me. I live alone, am73 ,lonely, very depressed no family few friends. So what?! #fat lady

#fat ..I have been on Medication for 17yrs..75mg quitapine..200mg #lustral ..15mg diaz..120mg #Propranolol ..
10mg #zolpidem .500mg #naproxen and 30mg #lansoprazole daily..I used to be 9 stone and now I'm 15 stone. I eat as #Healthy as possible but due to #Fibromyalgia and #Osteoporosis I can't #Exercise much..I hate my fat disgusting body..Does anyone feel the same as me and #how #how can I lose #weight ...Please #help ☹