#green# sick# with# shingles
Sick with shingles brought on by allergic reactions to a severe spider bite and whiplash from a car accident I’m a mess 🤢😢
FIRST: I AM OK! Don’t worry about the title, I’ll explain. This is my last update about the friendship I decided to end. This is my 3rd update, you can find the other posts on my profile.
My last update, I said I did the hard thing and decided to end things and that he responded but I didn’t read it yet. Well, I read it later on that same day, and he got really abusive. He basically decided to gaslight me by putting horrible words in my mouth that I never said and down right insulting me. Because I was leaving, he wanted to tear me down first. I decided to be the bigger person, respond once more very kindly and not give into the awful energy he was creating and blocked him.
That night was rough, mostly because I expected a lot of things, but not verbal abuse. It was like whiplash. I had a short meltdown, and moved on. The best part? It’s only been a couple days and I’m already so much happier. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I stuck to my principles, chose my words carefully and chose kindness over hatred. Seeing the way he responded told me everything I needed to know about him, and it reassured me that I made the right choice.
If you start to get a weird feeling in your gut about someone and you don’t know why yet—trust it. It could save you from a bad relationship. Surround yourself with people who make you feel happy, loved, and seen.
So…I’m nerding & refining my adaptive boxing routine…I’m experimenting with mirror work because you can’t see yourself punching
I’m thinking I’m gonna look muscular (OK forget that I have 2 coats on…this is how my thinking works) with 3 boxing classes and practice.
I don’t have a ring camera or anything so I was like “Let me just try it.”
So I start with the PunchLab & Heavy Bag Pro app…I hit “Record” on the iPhone…
Self-conscious but I do 1 or 2 rounds
Feeling a little confident, I get some of the food (I’m bulking so I keep food around).
I bend down for something….Somehow my other arm hit a fork perfectly so that it could last whiplash spaghetti on the side of my face
This startled my brain, ego, and spirit.
Welcome to life! 🤣
Ok so I saw 👀 my psychiatrist this morning and she is nothing but predictable she 🛑 my Xanax and gave me colonopin instead stopped my Zoloft and gave me Prozac. Then she sent me to have lab work done. I’m catching it rough and I’m at a job I hate I actually pray for someone to rear end my car every time I drive to work so I don’t have to go in. Like that’s how bad I hate my job! I don’t want to get paralyzed or anything but whiplash will work I can sue the person who hit me and it gives me a few days if not two weeks out of work. I know it’s wrong but I really wish I could utilize intimidation or threats to control the disability judges decision and force a approval for my disability so I don’t have to deal with people in a work environment. I am not a bad person I am just so sick of how life is going even though I’m severely afraid of dying I wish I was in heaven right now and not here because of all the 💩 I have to deal with. I’m scheduled to go to vocational rehabilitation services on April 3rd I pray they can help me find another job that’s not fast paced like my current one is and I know I sound like a jerk but I just can’t keep dealing with crap man I just can’t and people truly wonder why I have such a issue with authority figures gee I wonder why?
It’s the kind of day where one pain runs into another. #Whiplash from a near miss, #TrigeminalNeuralgia and #Sarcoidosis #LupusPernio in my sinuses. Tea, rest, rX and lavender oil head massages.
It’s a lonely condition—not being able to share what you go through with your friends because they see your struggles as having a bad day or going through a phase or a response to a specific thing that happened that week. What they don’t understand is that #ComplexPTSD is lifelong and can be triggered by a myriad of seemingly small things to other people, e.g. someone raising their voice with you. They don’t understand that because of auto-responses baked in your brain from childhood trauma, you can’t just meditate it away. A yoga class, while relaxing, doesn’t stop your amygdala from smacking you in the face with emotional whiplash. So you keep your bad days to yourself or your journal or communities like this where you hope your words will be heard by someone.
When I was in high school, a middle aged teacher showed up to class with her hand in a cast, courtesy of a wild bowls incident. Being an all-girls school, naturely this was a source of gossip. After some discussion, we crowned it the 'Most Geriatric Injury Ever Conceived by Teenage Minds'.
Fast forward to the present, and here I am, ready to steal her crown!
Enter Taryn, the Yoga Clown 🤡
Last week, while channeling my inner 'Warrior Pose' at my local MS Centre, I felt a small pop in my
chest that definitely wasn't my inner peace bursting forth. By the end of the session, my neck was brewing with what felt like the beginnings of a migraine that could rival a Shakespearean tragedy. So I did the logical things—a hot bath with lots of magnesium, dinner, and an early night with dreams of being a yoga guru.
Clearly, the Universe had other plans...
I woke up feeling like I'd been rear-ended by an invisible truck. It was like the whiplash injury I got in a car accident a few years back, but with a hefty dash of facial acrobatics. Pain in the left side of my neck, ear, sinuses, and teeth—because apparently, you can sprain your face doing beginner yoga.
As I start to feel less like a human pretzel, I can't help but chuckle about the absurdity of it all. So, to anyone needing a laugh: if you ever feel silly about an injury, just remember me – the person who went full Cirque du Soleil with her face in yoga class 🤗
#DistractMe #CheerMeOn #ChronicFatigue #ChronicFatigueSyndrome #MyalgicEncephalomyelitis #Fibromyalgia #Headache #Migraine #Endometriosis #PolycysticOvarySyndrome #MultipleSclerosis #BackPain #Laugh #Meme #BruisedEgo
So I suffer from fibromyalgia, I was rear ended on Thursday (no one was really hurt but I have a serious case of whiplash i have been in so much pain even with my management meds I just want to scream at every touch. #Fibromyalgia
Fear of abandonment. People with BPD are often terrified of being abandoned or left alone. Even something as innocuous as a loved one arriving home late from work or going away for the weekend may trigger intense fear. This can prompt frantic efforts to keep the other person close. You may beg, cling, start fights, track your loved one's movements, or even physically block the person from leaving. Unfortunately, this behavior tends to have the opposite effect—driving others away.
Unstable relationships. People with BPD tend to have relationships that are intense and short-lived. You may fall in love quickly, believing that each new person is the one who will make you feel whole, only to be quickly disappointed. Your relationships either seem perfect or horrible, without any middle ground. Your lovers, friends, or family members may feel like they have emotional whiplash as a result of your rapid swings from idealization to devaluation, anger, and hate.
Unclear or shifting self-image. When you have BPD, your sense of self is typically unstable. Sometimes you may feel good about yourself, but other times you hate yourself, or even view yourself as evil. You probably don't have a clear idea of who you are or what you want in life. As a result, you may frequently change jobs, friends, lovers, religion, values, goals,
Impulsive, self-destructive behaviors. If you have BPD, you may engage in harmful, sensation-seeking behaviors, especially when you're upset. You may impulsively spend money you can't afford, binge eat, drive recklessly, shoplift or overdo it with drugs or alcohol. These risky behaviors may help you feel better in the moment, but they hurt you and those around you over the long-term.
Self-harm. Suicidal behavior and deliberate self-harm is common in people with BPD. Suicidal behavior includes thinking about suicide, making suicidal gestures or threats, or actually carrying out a suicide attempt. Self-harm encompasses all other attempts to hurt yourself without suicidal intent. Common forms of self-harm include cutting and burning.
Extreme emotional swings. Unstable emotions and moods are common with BPD. One moment, you may feel happy, and the next, despondent. Little things that other people brush off can send you into an emotional tailspin. These mood swings are intense, but they tend to pass fairly quickly (unlike the emotional swings of depression or bipolar disorder), usually lasting just a few minutes or hours.
Chronic feelings of emptiness. People with BPD often talk about feeling empty, as if there's a hole or a void inside them. At the extreme, you may feel as if you're “nothing” or “nobody.” This feeling is uncomfortable, so you may try to fill the void. But no attempts to feel the void are long lasting... only temporary.
Explosive anger. If you have BPD, you may struggle with intense anger and a short temper. You may also have trouble controlling yourself once the fuse is lit—yelling, throwing things, or becoming completely consumed by rage. It's important to note that this anger isn't always directed outwards. You may spend a lot of time feeling angry at yourself.
Feeling suspicious or out of touch with reality. People with BPD often struggle with paranoia or suspicious thoughts about others' motives. When under stress, you may even lose touch with reality—an experience known as dissociation. You may feel foggy, spaced out, or as if you're outside your own body.
#ADHD #Autism #bpdworld #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #PTSD #mentalthealth #BipolarDisorder #Bipolar2Disorder #Bipolar1Disorder
In a precedent miniSode to our deep dive into Fibromyalgia we talked about Brain Fog as a symptom of chronic illness and have disabling it can be. Please Go listen and tell us what you think:
creativecopes.wixsite.com/podcast/episodes/episode/428d599d/...
And stay tuned on your favorite listening platform as we release the deep dive into Fibromyalgia this Thursday 3/30-23.
#BrainFog #FibroFog #ChronicFatigue #Fibromyalgia #ChronicVestibularMigraine #ChronicMigraineSyndrome #Migraine #FMS #MyalgicEncephalomyelitis #CrohnsDisease #Endometriosis #Anxiety #PanicDisorder #ChronicHeadaches #ChronicIllness #ChronicMigraines #ChronicPain #creativecopes #SpinalCordInjury #Whiplash