So I suffer from fibromyalgia, I was rear ended on Thursday (no one was really hurt but I have a serious case of whiplash i have been in so much pain even with my management meds I just want to scream at every touch. #Fibromyalgia
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Fear of abandonment. People with BPD are often terrified of being abandoned or left alone. Even something as innocuous as a loved one arriving home late from work or going away for the weekend may trigger intense fear. This can prompt frantic efforts to keep the other person close. You may beg, cling, start fights, track your loved one's movements, or even physically block the person from leaving. Unfortunately, this behavior tends to have the opposite effect—driving others away.
Unstable relationships. People with BPD tend to have relationships that are intense and short-lived. You may fall in love quickly, believing that each new person is the one who will make you feel whole, only to be quickly disappointed. Your relationships either seem perfect or horrible, without any middle ground. Your lovers, friends, or family members may feel like they have emotional whiplash as a result of your rapid swings from idealization to devaluation, anger, and hate.
Unclear or shifting self-image. When you have BPD, your sense of self is typically unstable. Sometimes you may feel good about yourself, but other times you hate yourself, or even view yourself as evil. You probably don't have a clear idea of who you are or what you want in life. As a result, you may frequently change jobs, friends, lovers, religion, values, goals,
Impulsive, self-destructive behaviors. If you have BPD, you may engage in harmful, sensation-seeking behaviors, especially when you're upset. You may impulsively spend money you can't afford, binge eat, drive recklessly, shoplift or overdo it with drugs or alcohol. These risky behaviors may help you feel better in the moment, but they hurt you and those around you over the long-term.
Self-harm. Suicidal behavior and deliberate self-harm is common in people with BPD. Suicidal behavior includes thinking about suicide, making suicidal gestures or threats, or actually carrying out a suicide attempt. Self-harm encompasses all other attempts to hurt yourself without suicidal intent. Common forms of self-harm include cutting and burning.
Extreme emotional swings. Unstable emotions and moods are common with BPD. One moment, you may feel happy, and the next, despondent. Little things that other people brush off can send you into an emotional tailspin. These mood swings are intense, but they tend to pass fairly quickly (unlike the emotional swings of depression or bipolar disorder), usually lasting just a few minutes or hours.
Chronic feelings of emptiness. People with BPD often talk about feeling empty, as if there's a hole or a void inside them. At the extreme, you may feel as if you're “nothing” or “nobody.” This feeling is uncomfortable, so you may try to fill the void. But no attempts to feel the void are long lasting... only temporary.
Explosive anger. If you have BPD, you may struggle with intense anger and a short temper. You may also have trouble controlling yourself once the fuse is lit—yelling, throwing things, or becoming completely consumed by rage. It's important to note that this anger isn't always directed outwards. You may spend a lot of time feeling angry at yourself.
Feeling suspicious or out of touch with reality. People with BPD often struggle with paranoia or suspicious thoughts about others' motives. When under stress, you may even lose touch with reality—an experience known as dissociation. You may feel foggy, spaced out, or as if you're outside your own body.
#ADHD #Autism #bpdworld #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #PTSD #mentalthealth #BipolarDisorder #Bipolar2Disorder #Bipolar1Disorder
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In a precedent miniSode to our deep dive into Fibromyalgia we talked about Brain Fog as a symptom of chronic illness and have disabling it can be. Please Go listen and tell us what you think:
creativecopes.wixsite.com/podcast/episodes/episode/428d599d/...
And stay tuned on your favorite listening platform as we release the deep dive into Fibromyalgia this Thursday 3/30-23.
#BrainFog #FibroFog #ChronicFatigue #Fibromyalgia #ChronicVestibularMigraine #ChronicMigraineSyndrome #Migraine #FMS #MyalgicEncephalomyelitis #CrohnsDisease #Endometriosis #Anxiety #PanicDisorder #ChronicHeadaches #ChronicIllness #ChronicMigraines #ChronicPain #creativecopes #SpinalCordInjury #Whiplash
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My name is Mita. I am a 42-year-old multidisciplinary artist and podcast hostess; a mother and a wife. I focus a lot on Pacing and Creative Coping strategies to get through my days with various chronic conditions.
Following a whiplash injury in 2015, is when my chronic pain/illness journey started. I’ve been diagnosed with whiplash, fibromyalgia, orthostatic intolerance/dysautonomia, chronic fatigue syndrome, occipital neuralgia and chronic migraines.
I am in pain every day. Some days my cognitive function is severely hampered due to Brain Fog. And P.E.M (Post-Exertional Malaise) can be a real stick in the wheel.
My baseline, on a good day, is a headache pain level 2-3, occipital neuralgia at a 2 and fibromyalgia pain level 4-5 (on the ‘In Office Doctor’s Pain Scale’) with migraine attacks every few days.
Since developing a chemical sensitivity, it makes the pain hard to control, as I cannot take most medications.
I experience Vertigo, muscle weakness and extreme fatigue on top of all the other crazy symptoms these conditions come with, and I am at a fall/faint risk if I am not careful.
Late fall, winter and early spring are the roughest months to get through, living in the Midwest as I am. But once the weather stabilizes and becomes warmer and if I have been prudent with my energy supply during the winter, then I can find myself living it up a little more during summer which is invigorating for the soul.
So, I am limited. Physically. This is my reality. I only have so much energy to go around and every day I need to pick and choose what I spend it on. I always have to keep in mind that I cannot overdraw my account. I need to balance my ‘checkbook’, if you will, to make sure I do not go down to zero, because I may not have enough to go around for the next day, or even the next couple of weeks if I do. But with Pacing I can lead a somewhat decent life.
ME-pedia describes Pacing as such: “…an activity management strategy to help ME/CFS patients limit the number and severity of relapses while remaining as active as possible…”
(Obviously, I am not perfect at Pacing as I find myself doing too much on occasions, due to getting impatient with my limitations. Overall, I’d say I do pretty well with it though.)
So, what do I choose to spend it on? Well, some mundane tasks need to be done, like laundry or light cleaning, so I spread it out over a few days. I work within my boundaries which I have somewhat figured out via trial and error. This is part of Pacing. Ups and downs til you figure what You can handle.
I am a very lucky gal to have an extremely supportive husband and three children that help me with some of the heavier chores. The house would be in utter chaos if this was not the case.
When the mundane, pragmatic things have been taken care of, I choose to use my energy on the activities that fill me with contentment, keeps my anxiety levels down and overall contributes to a better state of mind. Whether they are Creative Coping Strategies, like painting, drawing, forest bathing, expressive writing, or just being with my family in the moment, or listening/making music (the latter depends fully on headache pain levels and brain fog but within my capacity, music will always have a part in my life).
I am also half of a duo in a podcast we have named Creative Copes where we talk about these exact things – A labor of love for ourselves and what we hope becomes an aid to others in similar situations. I save some extra energy for research and general podcast prep so I can co-host it, because the idealistic compassionate part of myself wants desperately for other people to feel less alone: a constant state of mind when stuck at home, in a body that does not compute anymore.
This is what I spend my energy on. Things that matter to me; that settle my body and mind and make my heart soar.
I am not all knowing and cannot be worldly with how limited I am: I am clearly not meant to be a main figure in changing the world!
But I can do Small Things in a Great Way, for myself, my family and others, and hopefully someone can feel less alone because of my story and be more inspired to get up each morning and meet the day head on. Love and light ❤️
I can be found on Instagram handle MitaMu.Art and/or Creative.Copes
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17 years ago I had 2 bad(on the inside) recreational accidents. I got thrown onto a lava outcropping by 2 hard rogue waves...two months later while sledding in the snow, we hit a deep divet, hard, the whiplash was a 20 on the pain scale of 10. But very little damage showed up on my body, rock cuts and bruises, all the rest was inside my body. Fast forward... I am a completely useless mass of bones, blood vessels, etc; I hardly qualify for the definition of a human.
My hubby has always been supportive and caring, truly I know I am the luckiest to have him.
BUT.... I am definitely getting weaker and the MDD, PDD are dragging me closer to the edge. We went to my neurologist yesterday for Botox, he went in with me,for the specific reason to get the dr to ok contrast in my next MRI. Today I found a passage that was pretty accurate at describing me.... I read it to my hubby and he replied that he didn't think it describes me, now.
WHAT THE 🤬🤯🤬 heck do I do, if he doesn't really "see me", the drs that never have, never will. I only have one answer...the one where no one will need to see me 🤯😱🤮💤💤💤💤permanent sleep. #NothingLeftInTheTank #63Feel93 #EFTH #🙏ForReliefOrDeath
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I don't get what I do ...one min. Me and my mother in law are chatting and laughing then BAM next thing I know she's pissed off and rude ...not sure if at me or something else...I'm so confused ugh!! #Whiplash #confusing #FamilyMember #frustration
When someone asks how I'm doing, I'm going seems to be the only way I can think of to put into words how im feeling. Im a single mum to a wee 4 year old boy who has a severe learning disability along with cerebral palsey with dystonia. It was his birth and the trauma of it that brought on ptsd but anixety has always been there from as early as 4 years old (thats when my own dad left). At beginning of lock down I watched "13 reasons why" on netflix and it brought back alot of memories I hadn't realised at the time where abusive/sexual assult/emotional abuse the list goes on, I mean even memories i hadnt known about, someone once told me once you open pandoras box there's no going back and thats litetally what it has felt like. While all these realisations are coming out im still having to parent as many of us do. Childs dad takes him for 1 hour every night and to be honest thats more hassle to get ready for than its worth and most nights i come back feeling crap because he has told me im a part time mum can call me all the names of the day,then next day its whiplash as he says I'm a good mum, its just mentally draining. He has him overnight 1 night at wkend and theres always a story when he comes back how difficult he was or what I could do better. I send absolutely everything down right down to a list of his routine and meds. It gets alot and while doctor has said ptsd, i have researched anixety depression, bipolar disorder, ocd, adhd and autism. I would love some clarity and ive such a long road of councelling needed im on a waiting list for cbt but that is long and nothing else offered as of yet, but I just keep going and try to remember everyone has their reasons they are the way they are #anixety #PTSD #CBT #13ReasonsWhy #singlemummy #cerebalpalseyawareness
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