There’s nothing worse than getting a text from your boss on your day off. That’s what happened to me today. I was minding my own business, trying to figure out how to fix something without having to buy a new one when the text came through.
Boss: Hi you guys I am at the shop and found some brochures for (my cousin’s shop) on the folder this is not one of our customers? Does anyone know about these brochures?
It was at this point that I started to panic because I had been trying to figure out how the folding machine worked using the mock ups I’d made for my cousin’s brochure. (I work in the printing industry.)
Me: That's my cousin's brochure. I was testing out a print for him. I was also trying to figure out how to work the folder.
Boss: How many did you do? I did not know anything about this
My panic rose. It’s never a good sign when I see those words. In my panic, I replied.
Me: Maybe 20. And he is in our customer database. We've done some cards for him in the past. He's trying out a new brochure. He wanted to place an order, but his events got cancelled.
I heard nothing after that and I’ve been in panic mode ever since. I have tried breathing exercises, guided meditation, focusing on something else. I’ve downloaded several new apps onto my phone in hopes of using them for my anxiety, but they didn’t pan out. I even tried 7 Cups, but nothing helped. I’m currently at my wits end, exhausted, and my brain yelling at me that I’m either going to get a lecture Monday or I’m getting fired.
My wonderful friends have been trying to help me as well, but I feel like I’m burdening them with my problems. So I stopped talking to them and am about to hit my last resort: 1mg of Klonopin and 300/30mg of Tylenol with codine. If this doesn’t help me sleep, I honestly don’t know what I’ll do. I am so stressed out over this and I don’t know why.
#sleepdeprived #anxious #Workstress #stressed