assualt

I’ve been through a lot—at work, in life, and for as long as I can remember. I’ve dealt with abuse, mistreatment, bullying, assault, and situations where I had to stand up for myself just to be heard.

Even when I spoke up, brought proof, or did the right thing, I was often ignored or silenced. That takes a toll on you. It’s exhausting to keep pushing through, trying to stay professional, kind, and calm when everything around you feels unfair or unsafe.

I’m also carrying trauma that’s not easy to explain. It comes from many places—things that happened when I was younger, and things that still affect me now. Some days I function well. Other days, it all feels too heavy.

I joined this space because I want to heal. I want peace. And I’d like to connect with people who understand what it’s like to carry pain quietly and still try to move forward.

If you relate to any of this, I’d really like to hear from you. #Abuse #assualt #Bullying #survival

I get very angry because I am frustrated at my own decisions. I beat myself up about the friends I kept and how they took advantage of me. I don't know why I am so angry when my mum is just trying to help. I think it's more to do with the fact I don't want these problems and I should never have to deal with them in the first place.

I kept bad company in my late teens and was getting into a lot of trouble. I need to remind myself that none of the decisions I made are my mothers fault - I need to start taking ownership of my own life. I was involved with the wrong crowd and I have to accept that nothing positive comes from that type of existence. I know it is difficult to come to terms with and I am deeply sorry for my decisions.

I want to stop getting angry at my mother and stop blaming her for all the negative events that were inevitably going to occur. I was not cut out for that life and my parents were trying to warn me before anything happened to me. Luckily I managed to survive without any major life changing events but I am left with the mental trauma that I am not equipped to deal with.

I need to stop getting angry and start living life on my terms. My time on this planet is not perfect and the decisions I make merely reflect an imperfect life.

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