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I wanted a private and secure email hosting service, so I went with Mailfence a while ago. For some reason, I haven’t received all of my clinic’s emails, so I’ve found that you could whitelist them and maybe it’ll works. Unfortunately, that’s behind a paywall subscription, which I don’t freaking get. But I still looked at their subscriptions plans anyway and saw that they were pretty low, like one plan was almost $3 per month. I thought “well, that’s not too bad, I guess”. And then….. the next page told me that I would be paying for EVERY 12 MONTHS! So it was really $31.50 a year! It said NOWHERE else that it was a yearly subscription until this very moment. Are you fucking KIDDING ME?!?? I cannot pay all of that up front, we’re already paying for other shit. And of course, email and phone support is locked behind those fucking subscriptions, too. Unbelievable!!! I’ve spent so much fucking time trying to find an alternative to the evil Gmail from evil Google, only to be shitted on by “oh let’s pay so much money for this thing now” for the MILLIONTH TIME!! I ain’t paying that much for a fucking email service, like come on! Shouldn’t privacy and security be a FREE thing?!?!

Way too many businesses are expecting too much from us these days. Why the fuck does everything cost so much these days (both on the internet and in the real world)? What happened to stopping poverty, you’re only just strengthening it?? And I don’t wanna hear any of these companies say “oh, 2020 was rough and-“ IT’S 2025!! And even so, you didn’t need to skyrocket your prices up THAT high. And now you’re locking actually useful shit behind a paywall, too?! This enrages me. A simple WHITELIST feature is LOCKED BEHIND A DAMN PAYWALL. That’s ridiculous.

I feel like almost every fucking company is so money hungry these days, just fucking stop. Please. We’re NOT fucking made of money! Capitalism has gotten too far, at least in the US here (which I’m very unfortunate of living in as I strongly hate this country as an American), and I’m not just saying that because I’m anti-capitalist.

#anger #MoneyIssues #Anxiety #Vent #inflation #Vent #triggerwarning #MyAutismIsNotADisability #MyAutismIsNotADisorder #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #AutismSpectrum #Awareness #inflation #CapitalismHasGottenTooFar #StopThis #enraged

A lot has happened recently. I made those I love aware about my harmful thoughts towards myself. I'm going to start therapy soon, and I've started on a medication, as well as my family finally acknowledging my medical condition. I have something very similar to POTS, called autonomic dysfunction. This is one of the many things that has contributed to my mental health, and now my family realizes how bad it is. Though I am getting help, this is called "Growing Pains" for a reason. My condition is manageable, but chronic. I have to take in a lot of sodium to help manage it, and it's really hard. That and the medication I mentioned has been rough on my stomach. I might be getting help now, but things aren't perfect. Anyone else healing, its a process. These growing pains will be there, but I think everyone needs to remember, it just means we're growing, and getting better. Stay safe, and I appreciate you all. #Depression #AutonomicDysfunction #Awareness #growing

So I'm gonna be in the process of creating somewhat of a video diary to track my journey with DID on FB. I hope to capture my alters on video so that 1. I have a record of when I switch 2. Educate people about DID. If any of you would be interested in watching please don't hesitate to reach out to us on Facebook at the Wulff System. Leave me a message on messenger and I'll add you directly just to limit spammers and ridiculous "miracle cures".
#DID #DissociationDisorders #Awareness #videodiary

Been struggling with it for about a month now and it really sucks :( #OCD #Anxiety #MentalHealth #sucks #cantstop #Awareness #Breathing #MentalHealth #obsessive #horrible #sad #lonely #depressed #anxious #New #newhere #TheMighty #moghtytogether

Writing with no filters apart from my own artistic means as my only way to have a clue about what's really going on inside of me.

I have a hole in my mind and have no clues what's going on there and I'm only at the beginning of the process to reach it.

04.11.23

love myself
kept me company
there's detachment inside of me
I've killed
So what am I?
oblivion of my past
the many millions versions
warriors
the desire to be with you
Has it always been me?
just me and only me
my ego my will my life
back at my core
should never forget you
my confusion healing me
my little friends
I'm back at you again
wrappes by placid me
Taking care of you all.
I'll come to love you.

#Writing #oblivion #mind #Awareness #Understanding #Poetry