This may sound weird, but I’m grateful for something that made me angry today. I had a really rough day. From feminine issues, to forgetting my cute/comfy mask and having to wear a dumb disposable one, to not getting to eat my lunch because I offered to cover my coworker’s shift - I was a mess. During moments of peace when I could take a drink of water and breathe, I felt bad for my husband. He always has to hear my crap. All my anxiety and anger gets dumped on him almost daily, because keeping it all in hurts too much.
But then, something truly “horrible” happened: I saw the cover on Facebook for a book I have been looking forward to since I finished the preceding books in the series over a year ago, and this cover is HIDEOUS compared to the others. I was horrified, still am horrified, that they would do this to one of my favorite book series, and I am super upset because now I don’t want to actually buy the book, because it does not match the rest of the series - that I already own - even remotely. I could not possibly put that book on my beautiful shelves, and most certainly not next to the gorgeous books it’s supposed to belong too.
So I got home from work, and my husband got to listen to his book nerd wife ranting about ugly covers. Not his anxiety ridden wife who hasn’t eaten all day, who had to deal with a crappy mask and womanly troubles all day, who has overall just had a really bad day and even worse month. No, he got a ridiculous fan girl who like pretty shelves and matching books.
So I am grateful to the author and publisher who decided today would be the day they pissed off all the fans with this cover reveal (because the large majority of fans for this book also hate the new cover), because it soared my poor husband from the mess that I usually am.
Thank the heavens for ugly books to distract from the bad days, allowing us to calm down and worry about something else for a minute before we can turn back and face our problems with a clear head.
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