I believe I need to be taken, taken somewhere where my worries and struggles do not burden people I love. I believe I need to be cast away from society, for have no value to contribute or knowledge to give. I believe my current existence places such a burden on people I love and care too much about, to a fault, do not need a burden like me in their lives.
I am the one that threw away everything. I am the one that thought, for once, if I didn’t wake up, nobody would come knocking or know. The one individual that cared and gave a shit, is the one I’ve ruined things for.
Please, Lord, take me away. Give me the strength to fight because I no longer want to or have the will to. I don’t want to exist like this, I don’t want to push on. I don’t know what I’m doing or what my purpose is and every holiday, celebration, gathering weighs down upon me heavily. It’s a reminder I’m alone. It’s a reminder I don’t belong. It’s a reminder I am outcasted because I have mental illness.
Let sleep overtake me. Let me lift my heart to you. Let me fall asleep in the arms of the one I love and know that maybe, just maybe, it gets better. I know I can’t keep putting on a smile and brace face for that facade is slowly caving in.
“I think I hit the potion life where,
I’m just done.
But everything coz crashing down.
My demons are screaming louder,
Trying to eat away the great of me.
And this time,
I’m not going to fight back”
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