Doubt

I’ve thought of this before and can’t find an answer. Ever since I was a child, my closest family has never trusted my actions or thoughts. “Are you sure”, “let’s have someone else do it”, “maybe you shouldn’t do it yourself”. I’ve grown up second guessing everything I do because I’ve never had confidence in my own actions or decisions. How do I work with my family when they don’t trust me? I doubt myself so much that I feel better just sitting back and not speaking up. I know my family cares, it’s just that anything I do, I’m questioned on. I get frustrated and just shut down. I end up wanting to just disregard what I did (like a child who works hard on a project only to be told “maybe you shouldn’t, just be careful and let someone else who knows better). I just don’t know.

Hi ! I'm Aurelie, asperger, and aspiring artist, I'm writing my own web comic and I have a question; how do you face uncertainty?

I've felt uncertain about things in my life; I live in a rural place and I wish I could share my love for storytelling with lots of people.

What do you do when life feels uncertain like, you focus on the fact that there are things that are out of our control?

Thanks for your answers !

#Uncertainty #Doubt #Asperger #Autism

Needs some prayers today! I have a job interview and scared to death please

I have friends but i aren’t they aren’t all a friend to me. I’ve had too many relationships where I felt lonely in that includes friendships. it’s either bc I say the wrong things and at the wrong times, judgment, or talks behind my back. I honestly think it’s karma but idk rn. I’m spiraling standing still. #Doubt.

My doctors have dealt with my symptoms so awful in the last few months that I've started to question if I'm just making up these symptoms in my head. like maybe they're not actually as bad as I think they are. Now I cant get the thoughts of this out of my head and I have no idea how to handle it.

Looking for support or advice.

Edit: Also know that no one has actually diagnosed me yet. everyone has looked at my tests and said "This looks like Chrohs" but no one wants to make the official diagnosis and start treatment.

#IBD #Doctors #treatment #Doubt #chrohns #Support #Advice

2020 has begun ...The last few days of 2019 . I was dreading the NEW YEAR(Decade ??? WHAT???) Just sad...The reality of time passing.

FASTER And FASTER it's like you're lost in the rush...Trying to recall memories. Examine them...But I never manage to catch them. I can't hold them in my mind's eye. Then you wonder, with memories so hard to see... Is anything you remember true or real? Distorted. mirage.

LIFE: It's like I lived it....But I didn't? Where did I disappear to? "BE" IN THE PRESENT MOMENT? We say.   But how can you be? If you don't recall the past, how do you discern whether you are present or not?

Thinking in the last few days of 2019...A new yr My Cat passed in June...Now We start A yr ...A DECADE with out him in it...Why does time go by? Trying to love my new kitten...But I WANT Time to rewind...OVER & OVER back to when Woo was here...2020 just means he's farther away from me in my memory bank....and it'll just keep going that way! NO! I think of his death 7 months ago today--Wishing I could have been more present . I wonder If I caused him more pain...being in non acceptance of letting go. I'll never know.

Now the new kitten I love...but she hears me crying for Woo. Fear she'll think she's unwanted...WHY?

Fear,taking her to get Spayed...What if she doesn't survive the procedure??
What am I doing with a cat anyway Not emotionally or physically capable of providing the best care #Doubt #Disability #fearofloss #turnbacktime