When schizophrenia keeps me from doing things I love
One thing I have come to really enjoy is exercise. I’ve been going to the gym for almost two months daily. Yesterday while at the gym working out on the treadmill, I started hearing a voice telling me that people were all staring at me and I was being filmed and broadcast. This made me want to leave as soon as possible. I was experiencing positive symptoms of my schizoaffective disorder. Positive in this case doesn’t mean good, it’s experiencing things that usually aren’t in someone’s day to day life.
I try to not let schizophrenia control me but sometimes it’s very hard. Today I had a panic over leaving the house to go back to the gym. I was sure that something bad was happening or going to happen if I went.
Delusion s and hallucinations are what people mostly think of about schizophrenia. But another set of symptoms that are troubling and can interrupt someone life are negative symptoms. These symptoms take away from a persons experience. For example lack of motivation or lack of pleasure in doing things they like to do.
I love crochet and knitting but lack of motivation and pleasure from these things keeps me from being able to do them as much as I like.
One thing that helps me feel like I have control when things feel like they are spiraling is stick to a routine. I have a fairly strict routine that I try to stick to and every day. This means I try to wake up and go to bed at the same time each night. I take my meds at the same time each day. I set aside time to exercise even if it’s a short walk around the block.
When schizophrenia keeps me from doing things , I try to not let it keep me down for too long if I can and if things get too much I talk to my doctor.