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    Do you have trouble sleeping due to flashbacks?

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    As a child I was molested by my best friend’s brother while he thought I was sleeping, it happened serveral nights. I laid there, frozen, not knowing what else to do. To this day I’m still unable to sleep unless my lower body is covered and against a wall and even then I toss and turn all night, scared, on high alert. I even have nightmares frequently where he takes it further. #PTSD #Flashbacks #Molested #Abuse #ChildAbuse #SexualAbuse

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    Why was I born - am I loved.

    <p>Why was I born - am I loved.</p>
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    Looking for advice/#familysecrets

    I had an extremely hard life. From being homeless as a child to being #Molested as child and #raped at 15. My father molested me as a child for many years and then there were at least 3 #inappropriate situations that happened with my #brother that remember vividly. I did not come to find out that my father had molested my 3 brothers and a cousin until a few years ago. The situation that I am having now is I have been struggling with #Flashbacks and trying to make peace with it all if possible. At the time of the situations with my brother I was elementary school age and he is 15 years older than me. When the molestation came out my sister had gone to my mom regarding my father. My #mom basically threatened my fathers life and kicked him out. Thing is I do not recall when I told her about my brother but I know I was older. My mom made excuses for him and how I look at it gave him a pass. I am not mad at my mom for this even thou I’m guessing I should be a little. My mom is very close with my brother they talk every single day more than once. I love my mom more than anything. We have been through a lot together. Recently my brother had a stroke and I feel terrible about it but for some crazy reason I’ve come to some sort of fight within myself. I have talked to my brother over the years as normally as I could. Since he had the stroke we have not talked. Other than text. My mom keeps telling me to call him. I don’t know why but I just don’t want to call. I also don’t want to get into anything with my mom she’s 87 and there’s no point at her age to cause her to get upset or bring her any more #Stress . My sister passed this year then my brother had a stroke. Sorry this is so long. Anyways do I just call to make my mom happy ? Thing is my brother will l talk and talk keeping me on the phone when I really don’t want to talk to him. I truly am only nice to him because of my mom. Any #Advice on how to approch this situation ?

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    Does anyone else who has been a victim of SA from a parent think they’ll never recover? Some days I wish I could just have amnesia. #Incestsurvior #Molested #Pain

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    chris' Series Part 2

    <p>chris' Series Part 2</p>
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    chris' Series Part 1

    <p>chris' Series Part 1</p>
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    These past few days I've been thinking a lot my bad experience when I was young...I was around maybe 8-10y/o? Really not sure.. anyway so this how it goes...

    When I was that age I usually go out and go to my cousins house to play..we usually watched Tom & Jerry on their living room.. all I can remember from this is that one or maybe 4 or 5 (really can't remember how many times)...their father would call me to sit on his lap..ofc I am just a child so I would go to sit since I know he is my uncle..then I remembered how he will put one of my hand inside his blue checkered boxer shorts (I have memories of some things, we all do as a child right) and he will hold me and guide me on how I should touch it...then he will put his hands inside mine and will play on it (Ofc I already know what it was all called now I am 23y/o) Since I'm very young that time I really don't have any idea what he's doing on me, if it's right or wrong #Pleasedontjudgeme I really forgot how many times it happens but as I grew up and I am finally getting into my senses and knowing already what's right or wrong then there's the last time where he did that to me and I when I got home as I'm taking a bath, I want to cry and thinking what have I done, I am afraid of how my aunt will react to what his husband did to me and she's a PWD that I am concern also. So I didn't tell anybody..I didn't tell my parents because I'm afraid of any trouble or whatever between our families... I just never go back to their house and play with my cousins anymore..

    As time goes by, ofc I am forgetting it even just for awhile... but everytime I'm seeing him I always begin to think if he remembered what he did to me..Thinking if I should tell my mom..but I just always try to disregard it... then these past few days we usually sit outside their house with other cousins to talk and you know just a bonding time..I know that he's not there cuz of work so it'll be okay with me but there's a time I can see him there so it affects me again..especially now that I know what he did to me was wrong and he abuse my innocent mind. But I still don't know if I should open up to my mom, still I don't want to cause any trouble or any problem between our families especially I know that he has 2 daughters now and I feel pity on my aunt that's PWD.. :(((( #SexualAbuse #Molested #ChildAbuse

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    It did.

    <p>It did.</p>
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    Bad dreams about abuse

    I was sexually abused by my Dad, and I finally accepted it recently. I discovered sexual photos of a girl he tutors on his phone. I had to report him and he is no longer a part of my life. It has traumatized me so bad, and I constantly have nightmares of my Dad. I can’t stop thinking of him touching me. The thoughts just come and the anger grows. I think about cutting myself sometimes. I don’t know how I can have a normal and happy life. It doesn’t seem possible for me.
    I’m trying very hard. Some days are better then others. I feel like damaged goods sometimes too, and that no man would ever date me. People wonder why I’m still a Virgin and that’s why. I even have a hard time kissing men too. Sorry if this is dark, I needed to express how I feel.
    #SexualAbuse #Depression #Trauma #Molested
    #Flashbacks #PTSD

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