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Not sure what your trigger words are but mine might be different. More than likely I will offend you. I feel like I can't do anything or say anything about a single thing that happens to me and frankly I'm scared of my own self. In 2009, right after Katrina I lost my Mama, both grandmother's, my great aunt, uncle, several friends, and through alot of therapy over the last few years I thought I was able to get through the day.

Until Nov 2024 when my mother in law passed. Most ppl hate theirs and w/o having any other matriarch in my life instead of hate, I loved mine! I even quit my job and was her caregiver until I wasn't able to bc of my own illnesses. Now all the same feelings I had... thoughts about the stupid as I call it....the dark place... Docs call it depression. It has no place and I know this but stopping it and then frickin mother's day dammit mother's day comes. I was told... Lied to by my docs years ago that I couldn't have kids.

I've never been able to get past that. Don't say my husband is a great man to stay with me through all the illness and depression bc we've only had a true marriage for 5 of the 20 we've been together. We live different lives in the same house with him in another room like it's the 1950s. Having his mom here helped keep us together but gave him an excuse to keep pushing an adoption off that I've given up on us having. So I grieve and mourn the loss of being a mother myself and mothers day is nothing but another reminder. Like being on a merry go round I can't stop.

#Depression #Grief #Loss #mom #MothersDay #Motherinlaw #Motherinlaw

When it’s sad it’s out of your control or you wish they would look after their health a little more push themselves to eat a bit healthier or exercise but they always feel awful and in bad health with many ailments especially my mom. And feel bad about the financial situation since my dad is the breadwinner and my mom got sick pretty young with heart disease and other things. My sister has Ulcerative Colitis etc etc #ChronicPain #mom #mother #Parents #Family #Sickness #illness #Health #eating #MentalHealth

Hi , This is my first time using this so it might be bad but today I learned my mom has cancer I was told it’s uncureble and I don’t know what to do one second I’m
Having a panic attack on the bathroom floor the next I’m laughing at a meme on instagram then I feel guilty for laughing and go back to crying i don’t know how to properly process everything.

Hi it’s so great to find a community. I’ve been through a lot. I’m reading these posts from Mom’s of little ones. Hang in there! You’re doing fine. I had 3, worked full time as a Registered Nurse &was always struggling to juggle career and home life. I felt guilty for leaving my kids , felt like I didn’t have the energy for both. I had no idea at the time that I had Sjögren’s disease and fibromyalgia. I was always so exhausted during the whole bedtime routine - bath, books etc which we all loved but I secretly just wanted to get out of the way so that I could flop into bed.
My kids are grown now . 31, 24, & 22. I miss those times so much. I cherished each moment with them when they were little and played with them a lot , but they do grow up so quickly. My husband & I are divorced. We got divorced when they were teens. I don’t see the boys as much . I still feel guilty, but just have to remember that Im doing the best I can. I love them more than life and they love me too.

My mom pasted away this past Tuesday. Her funeral is this coming Tuesday. She got what she thought was allergies on May 5th and then went down hill from there. It took my siblings and I a month to convince her to go to the doctor because she wasn't getting better. We found out at the very end, she had stage four cancer. How did she not know? How were there no signs or symptoms? I'm having anxiety about going to her funeral because my younger brother is one of those controlling toxic people. I had to block him on my phone because his text messages are abusive and all over the place. I come from an abusive family and I think that is one of the reasons I have pushed them away. I'm positive my brother is going to say stuff to me when I go to mom's funeral. I'm not sure how to handle him. He pushes and pushes until I can't take it anymore. He brings up things he knows will hurt me on purpose. My sister says that's between you and him. Then sa

He says y'all have never gotten along. But she doesn't get it because he doesn't talk to her like he does me. I'm so anxious I can hardly eat. #mom #Anxiety #Abusive #Toxic #nauseous #Funeral #cancerous