Does it ever get better? I do most of what I have to do with extreme effort - work, home, existing. I have mastered the “facade” most of the time. People don’t get it. If they could be in my shoes for an hour they wouldn’t last. I know people have it worse. The black hole doesn’t end. I’m tired of getting guilted into staying on earth. I don’t want others to take on my pain, especially my kids (21&24) I’m not being fair to anyone. Rock-hard place.