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(65f)I’ve never really thought of this word before but apathy makes a lot of sense for my life. #apathy #Bipolar #c -PTSD #Anxiety #Depression #hemiplegic migraine #Peripheral neuropathy #eating disorders…

When it’s sad it’s out of your control or you wish they would look after their health a little more push themselves to eat a bit healthier or exercise but they always feel awful and in bad health with many ailments especially my mom. And feel bad about the financial situation since my dad is the breadwinner and my mom got sick pretty young with heart disease and other things. My sister has Ulcerative Colitis etc etc #ChronicPain #mom #mother #Parents #Family #Sickness #illness #Health #eating #MentalHealth

I think I’m developing binge eating disorder or at least for sure emotional eating, I’m pretty overweight for my age but based on my ethnicity and such we are more naturally curvy or plus sized, but regardless for health and trying to slim down or at least be healthier/ more active and eat healthier or less big portions. What are your tips or anything that helps you personally if you struggle with this or even if you don’t any ideas, or anything you have personally looked up online/ learned in therapy etc.

Thanks!! Appreciate it! Super hard to lose weight but I really need to make a change :c before I gain more weight I’m currently 85kg and 5”3 so it’s definitely too high for my frame. Mainly the thighs and also lately my stomach/waist.

#EmotionalEating #eating #BingeEatingDisorder #Mindfulness #Overeating #needtomakeachange #plusiszed #Overweight #Health #Tips #physicalhealth #BodyPositivity #Fitness #loseweight #Motivation #Advice #nutrition

TW Mentions of fat-shaming, swearing, bugs, some all caps, misgendering, exclusionism #venting
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Seriously, why does this damn society seem to think that just because you look overweight instantly leads to believing they have health problems or the only ones capable of health problems? You can look skinny, or average, or look really healthy (even have a bunch of muscles!) and can - still - have health problems regarding weight or how you eat.

Now I’m remembering someone in 2018 who just came up to me and was very kind and told me their way of how they lost weight. I was just sitting there, minding my own business. I thought that they were being very nice and just giving advice, and now I feel like a fucking fool because it was JUST BECAUSE I LOOKED OVERWEIGHT!

Today, it honestly doesn’t help that when I’m told how I should eat or exercise, I get imposter syndrome all over again. I’m an adult. I already suffer from anxiety and despise this ridiculous judgemental ignorant world. I know I’m overweight. When I’ve had enough of life, I have the urge for comfort food. I know what I’m eating isn’t really that healthy, I admit that, and I’ve always TOLD myself that I should eat healthy, not to look skinnier, but to at least be healthier, and had even made plans to cut out some thing I should eat.…it’s hard. I have a lot of shit going on right now. Does society even understand that?!

I’m already stressed that the weather is already getting warmer here than I like, which means more bugs (flies, gnats) and possibly fleas again, so I’m trying to plan the best way to make this problem not so irritating including doing things that my sister continuously says that I shouldn’t do which also fucking irritates me to max (tying the garbage bags… it keeps the gnats away and I even SAID that I’ll buy more bags for us). Last summer was horrible and I do NOT want it to come. Spring is also about to betray me as well.

I am non-binary and have severe social gender dysphoria and hate being misgendered as a fucking “she”, which means I mostly stay inside all the time because of how painful it is.

I suffer from trust issues because of how much the world is a piece of garbage. “Cringe” this, “snowfl*king” that, “faking” this, seriously. Why.

My sister’s kids are on spring break and their loud footsteps irritate my autism whether or not I like to admit that.. trying to not to seem like I hate them (which I don’t, I love them!!). And all I’m trying to do is to get myself CALM.

Those are just four things. There are many more I can list. So even trying to be healthy is a struggle either because of poor mental health or that I’ve given up at that moment. I want to live… but it’s to eat healthy or exercise because of all of this crap. Does society even understand that?!

#MyAutismIsNotADisorder #Fatshaming #fat #Overweight #Anxiety #SocialAnxiety #ImposterSyndrome #DearSociety #nonbinary #EatingDisorders #EatingIssues #eating #EatingHealthyIsNotEasy #MentalHealth #LGBTQIA #BeingHealthyIsNotEasy #sad #BodyShaming #BodyImage

To all you celebrate, may your observance be joyful. To those in eating disorder recovery, may your fasting be safe. To those who know it is to early, may you also find meaning in the holiday.#eating disorder

Does it ever get better? I do most of what I have to do with extreme effort - work, home, existing. I have mastered the “facade” most of the time. People don’t get it. If they could be in my shoes for an hour they wouldn’t last. I know people have it worse. The black hole doesn’t end. I’m tired of getting guilted into staying on earth. I don’t want others to take on my pain, especially my kids (21&24) I’m not being fair to anyone. Rock-hard place.

I am ready to give up. I have tried so many things for my treatment resistant depression, anxiety, PTSD, eating disorder…,,. I have had 40+ medications, ketamine, hospitalizations (made things worse), outpatient groups, individual therapy, just to name a few. Has anyone tried transcranial magnetic therapy? I will not do ECT and shock my brain-personal observations. Any suggestions? #TreatmentresistantDepression #Anxiety #eating disorders

Tomorrow is Easter. I love it so much but I struggle at the same time. My depression has been worse for the past week or so. I know it's because of the expectations of me at Easter as I visit with my mom, brothers, nephews, and my brother's girlfriend. I have an eating disorder and I have had some success with it by following a specific food plan. My family does not support me not eating junk food, drinking, etc. They feel it is the holiday and I need to let loose. I know this is not something I can do. When I let loose my depression and eating disorder become unmanageable. I told them I'm bringing my own food. So I'm anxious about tomorrow to say the least.#Depression #eating disorders #Anxiety #codependent

Does anyone else go days (1-3 ) without eating?!? Honestly, until recently I didn't think or realize it to be a problem. I work customer service and I had a guest tell me "Don't go losing any more weight" I mean yeah I was aware of having to make a new hole in my belt! But if I'm being honest..... I'm a woman and losing a couple of pounds is and will always be our dream. Lol. 😉 Now I'm extra PANICKED!!! Trying to remind myself to eat, but I put any food in my mouth and chewing is almost impossible. I have to force myself to get it down. ( it literally gags me ) an on top of it I've developed anxiety about my self-image..... do I look bad? Have I lost too much weight?? It's a cycle I've been in the last few years. 4 days eating 3 not..... or I'll feel good for a month, then something can happen maina catches me slipping and I'm doing it again....
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