MusicIsSavingMyLife

“The good times hide and so do I

Out of my control I dig a hole

If that's all the time that you got

Then I'd rather not waste my life on hold

I'm gonna let the bad times roll.”

~Paul Westerberg

I love the movie Catch & Release because a) Jen Gardner, b) Jen Gardner, and c) it’s ultimately a feel good movie that touches on some heavy issues like death, depression, and how family should be defined.

**SPOILER ALERT**

Family is simply who and what WE choose to make for ourselves. In my experience, it is most often those least deserving of our trust who would try convince you otherwise.

But, back to the movie…

I discovered this song from the soundtrack and thought it would make for an apt Chronic Illness Anthem. Because as much as I’d like to trade in my body for an upgrade, I would not give up the wisdom being ill has bestowed upon me.

Like knowing who is worthy of being called my family. And that sometimes, despite our hopes and best efforts, we just have to let the bad times roll—and not live our lives on hold.

What are your Spoonie Anthem contenders?

#Music #MightyMoment  #MightyMoment #musicsoothesthesoul   #MusicIsSavingMyLife #Movies  #Depression  #Death  #ChronicIllness #Spoonie #anthem

Did you know that Otis Redding missed the 27 Club by just one year? Janis Joplin openly admitted to being inspired by him (and countless others I’m sure!). Janis supposedly changed her singing style after they sang together at Monterrey Festival. Yes, I am a bit of a hippy slash music trivia nerd 🤓

Anyway I love this song and cannot help but think of it when I see this picture. This was my first post hospital outing about a week ago. Who knew simply sitting on a bench, just sipping a cup of tea, could feel like such a luxury… pure bliss after 8 weeks of confinement.

Original lyrics by Otis Redding

Altered to be fall / autumn appropriate 🍂

Sittin' in the mornin' sun

I'll be sittin' when the afternoon comes

Watching the leaves roll by

Then I watch 'em blow away again, yeah

I'm sittin' on the slats of the bench

Watchin' the time roll away, ooh

I'm just sittin' on this wooden bench

Soakin’ up time

Left my home with my dogs and partner

Headed for the Cotswold border

'Cause I've had nothin' lately to live for

It look like nothin's gonna come my way

So I'm just gon' sit on the slats of this bench

Watchin' the leaves roll away, ooh

I'm sittin' watchin autumn’s alter, wastin' time

Look like nothin's gonna change

Everything still remains the same

Ten doctors couldn’t tell me what to do

So I guess I'll remain the same, yes

Sittin' here restin' my tired bones

And this loneliness won't leave me alone,

Two thousand medical miles, I’ve roamed

Just to make this perch my home

Now I'm just gon' sit, on this wooden bench

Watchin' the leaves roll on by, ooh yeah

Sittin' on the slats of the bench

Enjoyin’ time

#Music #musicislife #MusicIsSavingMyLife #Poetry #poetrytherapy #Nature #MentalHealth #Depression #Disability #Hypothyroidism #mycotoxins #newnormal #MyCondition #Trying #thisismetrying

Right now, I’d rather believe that I don’t want friends to text me back.
Noticing when our patterns restart- that's progress! #progress
Oh no, My body will never be healthy, fit and trim! Am I even trying?
I'm useless when I'm sick, and I'm sick so often, no wonder people don't need me.
I don't need people. I nurse my health on my own, use music and food to comfort myself, and soon enough they'll be getting on without me, too.
I don't want to need them...
For conversation or empathy or camaraderie or encouragement ...
I really should learn to depend on them, though.
Trust issues > Low Self-esteem > Discouragement > Fear > Depression
I am so proud that I can recognize these faulty beliefs! And music is a wonderful outlet for emotional and mental health- I can share it with you all instead of listening in solitude! 😊💕🎧 We are mighty.

Motivation Playlist:
The Underdog, Spoon
Warriors, Imagine Dragons
Combat Baby, Metric
Zero, Imagine Dragons
Who's With Me, USS
Wrecking Ball, Mother Mother
Fight Song, Rachel Platten
Who Knew, P!nk
We Are Young, fun.
She's Kerosene, The Interrupters
Thunder, Imagine Dragons
Can't Change Me, Chris Cornell
Live to Rise, Soundgarden
Knocking at the Door, Arkells
Take Back The Power, The Interrupters
#MotivationPlaylist #Spotify #15Songs #MusicIsSavingMyLife

These two tattoos are two of my favorites because they show the strength and the courage of my fight with self harm and depression and are reminders to stay strong through everything. They are both also covering self harm scars. The butterfly is part of the self harm butterfly project and semicolon is part of the semicolon suicide project. and both have to do with my love of music and how music keeps me going each and every day. Which are two things that helped me keep moving forward. I love both of them so much and they mean so much to me #Tattoos #SemicolonTattoo #MusicIsSavingMyLife #musictherapy