My father died 2 days before my 20th bday. It amazes me still how many things he said or we talked about came true, after his death. He was mentally ill as well. Very highly educated. He loved telling this joke.
A man has a flat tire right outside an insane asylum. A man 👀 through the fence. They strike up a conversation. It's dark now. The man was almost finished changing the tire. He reaches for the lug nuts and tips over the hubcap and is unable to find the nuts, he needs to keep his tire on. He starts to panic. The man behind the fence tells him to settle down. He explains if he takes 1 lugnut from each of the other attached tires, all the tires will have 3 nuts each, and that will get him to the nearest tire shop. The man asked the man behind the fence, how can you be locked up in an insane asylum, and figure out an answer to my dilemma. He replied. I'm crazy not stupid.
I remember a couple of my first intake evaluations. Twice I was asked if I had a college education. Each time a surprised look was on the doctors face. I asked why? Their answer both times, "you speak very well and have a large vocabulary". My response both times were," I'm crazy, not stupid". I don't use that word anymore. I didn't realize til now I was reciting part of the joke I'd heard many times. Dad's been gone almost 38 years now, and still, I keep him close. Soft smile.
My younger brother and sister are having a very tough time these days and my parents are not very supportive or encouraging. My parents are very negative and fearful and the pandemic just gives them more fuel to scare and control my siblings.
I would even argue that my parents' behavior towards them is emotionally and physically abusive and medically, emotionally and educationally neglectful. My parents have always been devoid of empathy and abusive to animals and children.
My parents are not doing anything to help my siblings get an education, in fact they're making it harder. They don't help them at all and punish them if they can't do it all on their own.
And my parents refuse to provide my brother and sister medical treatment. I know my siblings suffer from depression, learning disorders and extreme social isolation, so I worry a lot about their health and safety. My sister gets paralyzing body spasms and can't control them and she has never been to a doctor or specialist to figure out anything about them. She's learning to drive now, what if she has one behind the wheel?
She stepped on a needle once and my parents still tell her how expensive that ER trip was (and my parents have money, they were easily able to pay for it ). It was an accident. Needless to say, no one steps on needles for fun.
My brother asked to go to a therapist and my parents took him once and when they got the bill they wouldn't ever shut up about it and told everyone so he quit out of shame and because they held it over his head and made him feel bad for asking to go.
What can I do to help my siblings?
I am worried about their health and safety.
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It has been almost four years since my family broke free from my father... Even though it has been so long I feel like he is close by me, watching and waiting, and the only reason he hasn't shown his face is because he is enjoying the ptsd show... Does anyone else feel something similar? #PTSD #Depression #Anxiety #narcissistparent