Living With BPD + ADHD + Autism
This is the story of my life; I have constant feelings of chronic emptiness. I Binge eat very often to attempt feel the emotional void that I deal with daily. I have been living with identity issue since I was a child. I was bullied from kindergarten through my senior year of school. My school years were horrible. Don't wish to remember them but I have intrusive thoughts so can't help but remember being bullied. The school was nowhere from my house when I was in 1st grade, and they would bully me all the way home. Then by the time I was 13 my dad started bullying me, I couldn't win for losing. He had this rule if I get bullied or beat-up at school, he was going to do the same when I got home so I just stop telling him what was happening to me at school so I could get peace when I came home. What a life. My father was verbally abusive and very manipulative. He would come home from work and rest on the couch, and he would get a call on the landline phone and force me to lie to whoever was calling and tell them he was not home. Even though he was sitting on the couch in front of me. I challenged him one time and I'm drawing a blank to what he did to me. But that is only 5% of my life. Tell you more as time moves forward. #narcissists #BPD #MentalIllness