speech

Does anyone else experience slurred speech, broken speech, unable to speak, words disappear? I never know what to expect.
I'm so sick of this. Sound like an idiot then some people treating me like it. Tired of bring treated differently. I'm still me inside. I want the chaos in my head to stop. I want to speak like I used to without vices.
I'm trying to understand why it happens. Thinking, processing, answering questions finding information, tiredness, pain. My speech gets messed up and pressure in my head. If I don't stop what I'm doing next I know I'm waking up.
Yesterday I was trying to do a cognitive test for a job. I want to go back to work. There has to be a way. Something I can do. I feel useless. The pressure started in my head. I felt drugged. I fell asleep or blacked out?
I got to 26 questions out of 50.
The test was timed. I remember seeing #26 and 4 seconds left. Then waking up. Feel defeated.
I don't want to sound ungrateful. I just want old me back.
When Im relaxed I sound like the old me. When I'm stressed tired or pain or excited it starts. the pressure, the fatigue, the bad speech.
If I take my gummies or drink cannabis tea I think I sound like the old me before the accident.
I wish I could be that all the time.
#TBI #speech #BrainInjury

I feel like I live in an alternate dimension reading about all these “surprise autism diagnoses “ as adults all these temple grandins who are business people in relationships acting etc.. let me tell you about my experience. My son is six. He uses a hone version of a soma bed because he has zero safety awareness. He sleeps naked cause he can’t deal with Pjs god only knows we try . He owes in his bed almost every night (usually in his balled up pjs after he takes them off) he speaks minimally . He frustrates painfully- he has so much inside him that he can’t get out. He can’t tolerate a toothbrush. He needs outrageous amounts of visual stimuli think two iPads at all times with competing YouTube clips. His behavior is challenging on a good day - forget a mask I can’t often get him to wear a seatbelt. So either I’m the worst mother ever, my kid is the sickest out there, no one is honest or autism is over diagnosed I’m so frustrated by tbe dilution of services for the I/dd population by kids in mainstream environments.
Apologies if I hurt someone feelings
#rant #nojudgement #trigger #ASD #specialed #I /dd

It's been a year. Doctors still don't have window masks without me getting bitchy and doing th eff footwork for them. I am more deaf than not. I makes Very sad and yes depressed and more isolated.

Please message me. I want to do phone interviews or text will work. I want to express the troubles and the trials of living after an attempt. #SucidePrevention #speech

If anyone would have told me add end a basket of nerves I would never believe them. Of late I have noticed that my speech is in slow motion it's like the amygdala (front lobe) and my speech is disconnected. I am freaking out.

My nerves are anxious, I want to run but to where I don't know. I have to get out of my house which I don't usually do because it feels like trembling with anxiety. What happened to me? This has such a negative view of my future it's hard to bear. I am sitting on bench watching the world go by.

#Fibromyalgia #Anxiety
attacks #BrainFog #speech #pace