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This piece was hard to write due to the nature, albeit therapeutic. #COVID19 #SocialDistancing #AnorexiaNervosa #EatingDisorders #Parenting #Anxiety #Depression #MightyTogether #staymighty

Shout out to those who made it through another day! #staymighty

I know that I haven't been on here much in, what feels like forever, but I plan on changing that. I've just been going through a rough patch lately and I lost my want to write (plus, I was binge watching Hannibal again and The Path lol). I will be posting about what's happened to me in more thorough posts, but I'll mention them so you'll know what to look out for. May even submit one as a story...Or the entire thing. Who knows?
I might have a job again soon, though it's for only one day a week. However, I'm more than okay with that because I know that I can't handle something full-time right now.
Sadly, I had a falling out with my "bestfriend". It happened a week ago, we got into - another - argument over something stupid and I had enough. That might be what I make into a story.
And lastly, for now because I can't remember what else I wanted to post about, I want to talk about how I have been doing with my #BPD #Anxiety and #Depression This will all have to be for another day, though.
I just hope that you all are #doingwell , #stayingpositive , #CheckingIn with each other, and practicing #selfcare
Can't wait to get on my laptop and start writing again! Love you all! #staymighty
XOXO
Lauren

There are two ways I’ll try advocating for myself this week.
The first is taking care of myself: I’ve been in a lot of physical pain lately, which doesn’t help with my #Depression , #Anxiety or #Insomnia . I should try to eat better, smoke and drink less take a shower, put on lotion and stretch when I get home from work and not overmedicate myself.
The second is working on my graduate research paper. It’s due on June 21st and I haven’t started writing yet because it makes me extremely anxious and I’m just too tired during the week and unwilling to “waste” my time on it instead of spending my days riding horses in the weekends. I should try to work a little bit everyday so that I get one part done each week.
I think that both these challenges will be hard, but not impossible. I’ll keep all of you Mighties up to date on how I’m doing!
#52SmallThings #staymighty

On the outside I'm laughing
In my mind I'm crying
Torn to shreds
Shattered to pieces
Will I be able to piece myself back?

On the outside I have it all
In my mind I'm about to fall
Silenced by guilt
Consumed by sadness
Will I find the joy I lack?

On the outside I keep it together
In my mind the torture lasts forever
Void of feelings
Full of nothingness
Will I ever find my way?

On the outside I'm fine
In my mind I'm not
I may look okay
But that's far from truth
Will I get through today?

Hopefully.
Hopefully, I will.

I took down this poem a few days ago - have been very unsure of my writing lately thinking that it's horrible and all ( which is annoying since I'm in a writing programme in school and I keep thinking my story idea is cliche). This was written a few days ago - not sure if it fully captures my feelings but I do feel like that sometimes guilt sadness and nothingness especially. Hopefully things will get better #staymighty #CheckInWithMe #Depression ?