Stressedout

• " So 1st Off " Happy Mother's Day " To All The Mighty Women Including Myself.... I Worked Today And My Bosse's Yelled At Me And Made Fun Of Me... For Not Being Able To Get To Work... Well Stop Cutting My Hour's... And I Wouldn't Be Having Issue's For Paying For Thing's... It's Getting To Be Annoying With This Economy I Payed Off My Rent.. And My Gas.. Bill Now Uber Want's To Charge My Monthly $9.99. Sub... Well I Can't Pay It Until Friday... Right Now I'm Trying To Find A Ride To Go To Work.. For Tomarrow And Tues... And My Manager's Want To Just Sit There And Complain That I Missed A Day... And That I Don't Like Coming Into Work... W.T.F... They Need To Remember That I'm The Only Employee That Help's Them Alot... I Can Save Some Money And Leave Them.. Then What Are They Going To Do.. They Can't Run A Restaurant Alone Without... Me Which Is Sad... I'm Soo Annoyed That They Choose.. To Mistreat The One Person.. That Help's Out The Most... But No When I'm In A Money Rut... They Bully Me And Make Fun Of My Situation... Human's Are Very Unkind... " • #Thought 's •○•● Skaoi Kvitravn •○●•

《 " So I Had A Good Day At Work... And Then I Get Home And Get The Mail. A Letter Saying That I'm Denied x3 OK I Know This Was Going To Happen... I Guess Your Brith Medical Record's Don't Work... That They Need Recent Visit's Etc... Well With The Stupid Stressful Alway's Severely Shorthanded Restaurant... That I Work For... It's Going To Be Even More Of A Pain... To Get Time Off To Go On Doctor's Vist's... And Then The Whole Bank Thing Where They Want To Be Intrusive In Every Little Thing... I Feel Like The Gov Already Has Enough Axcess To Thing's As It Is... But No They Alway's Want More... Even Though You Accidentally Said.. No To Giving SSA Axcess To Bank Record's.. Meh It's.. Still Was Going To Get Denied Anyway's... I Still Have My Job... I'm Just Going To Stear Away From Drama And Non Sense I Really Don't Need It.. So My Mood Right Now Is Majorly Low... I Just Don't Want To Last Another Whole Year Trying To Get On Disability.. " ° #Depression ○•□ S.K. ■•●

☆ " So I Have Been Busy Working And Applying For Stuff.. I Already Have An Appointment For SSA In April And I Just Did Medicaid And SNAP... I Just Really Want To Be Off My Feet From Standing 8+ Hour's A Day.. And To Finally Be Away From Nosy Mean People... But Until Then It's The Neverending Waiting Game With These People..." ☆ ▪︎♤▪︎SKAOI KVITRAVN▪︎♤▪︎ #Stressedout

× " So I Co-worker Kept Complaining About Me... And Other Co-worker's... To My New Boss... About How She's Alway's Doing Other People's Assigned Job's.. And I Have Been Kindly Telling Her To Please Stop Ordering Me Around... And Checking On Me... To See If I'm Doing My Job Correctly... And The Girl Doesn't Like Me At All Idk Why???... Nor Do I Care.. I'm Not There To Make Friendship's With Bratty Children.. I'm There To Pay My Bill's And Rent.. And This Girl Has Had It Out For Me... Since I Have Arrived... I'm Looking For A Diffrent Job.. But Currently Everyone Is On Seasonal.. So I'm Going To Just Ride This Storm... Until Jan.. This Is Not Fair To Me.. I Do My Job's Just Differently And They Don't Like That I Pace Myself... I Can't Win With Anyone... " ×# AnUpdate ☆▪︎▪︎☆SKADI ☆▪︎▪︎☆

Well, I don't even know where to begin. It has become apparent in the last 18 months that my husband of nearly 24 years is a narcissist. He's always been super judgmental (and acknowledges this fact, but has never tried to change it).

Well, we are definitely in a rocky place. Yes, I have a hand in it -- but, so does he. It takes 2 to tango, ya know.

Anyways, over the last year+ the home environment has gotten fairly hostile. When he gets home from work, I've been informed I'm "not supposed to speak to him until he's ready"... but he never indicated when that was. So I did set a boundary there... I told him he can't come sit down next to me on the sofa until "he's ready" because I'll inevitably talk to him. He expects me to just "know" when it's ok and not ok to talk to him (based on his mood - which is ever changing).

Even asking a simple question is met with extreme defensiveness. I was attempting to explain something medical from my doc to him, and he misunderstood. When I said his understanding was incorrect, he yelled "that's what you JUST said"... even though it wasn't. So I simply started over and said everything again. He doesn't listen to me. In fact, we had a HUGE discussion/argument about MY food preferences regarding pickled red onions (I like them, he insisted I didn't). Not 3 days later, he didn't remember the conversation. (He "never remembers" what he's said.)

He was going to therapy, but hasn't gone in at least 5 weeks. He was the one who said he wanted marriage counseling, but is now refusing. What do I do??

#narcissisthusband #narcissistspousalabuse #Gaslighting #Depression #Anxiety #BPD #AvPD #ADHD #Fibromyalgia #DDD #chronicpainpatient #Gastroparesis #Achalasia #Stressedout

× " Today Was A Wierd Super Hott Day At Work... I Was Tasked To Teach New Thing's... It Was Nice... Because T.B.H I'm Not Good At Doing The Register At All... A Customer Yelled At Me For Ringing Up And Charging Him The Worng Order... He Was Soo Loud That My Boss Heard Him... IDK Why She Keep's Putting Me On Something That I'm Not Good At.. I Can't Count Change Or Big Bill's... I Have To Count At My Own Pace.. Or I Will Forget What I Was Counting... And The Extremely Hot Weather Is Insane... I Got Sent Home Early... From Work Because The Restaurant Is Like Another Grill / Oven... And Everyone Else Got Sent Home That Worked The Morning Shift... And Then I Fell My Phone Got Messed Up.. The Screen Got Alittle Chipped... And I Also Got Hurt My Knees Got Banged Up Pretty Good... But I Will Be Ok... " × #Stressedout ▪︎☆ S.K. ☆▪︎

× " Sooo I Got A Morning Text From My Sister's Husband Saying The Same Thing... That I Need To Move Out And Apply For Disability... Like Really I Have Been Working My Butt Off For 7 Month's Now... I Have Only $500+ Saved Up Atm... They Don't Get That I Need To Pay For My Ride's And Buy My Own Food & Misc... I Litterly Don't Go Anywhere... Just To Work And Back.. My Monthly Spending On Uber Is Between $1,000 But ATM I'm Currently @$100+ So I Bounce With This Inflation B.S. They Get Mad Because I Come Home Early From Work... 😒 Like I Can Never Catch A Break... Or I'm Lazy And Unmotivated To Help Myself... I'm Doing The Best That I Can... They Just Need To Leave Me Alone.. My Fa.ily Severely Affect's My Mental Health... I'm Working On Getting A Place To Live... But They Want To Bud In On Everything That I Do... This Is Soo Draining And Not Fair... I'm A Target Again Because They Just Need Something To Focus On... Since Thier Old Dog Passed Away... A Few Day's Ago... " × #Stressedout ☆ S.K. ☆

× " Today Was Full Of Unexpected Thing's To Do. I Was Doing What I Normally Do Is Set Up And Make Fresh Tortilla's. All Day I Was Getting Bossed Around By Diffrent People. Who Were Not My Boss Today. And I Took Out A Massive Amount Of Trash. And Cleaned The Dine-In Area Again. I Also Made And Order Of 600 Tortilla's. So I'm Exhausted AF. End Of Rant... × Sincerly, ☆ S. K. ☆