Tired of fighting and exhausted all treatments with my TRD, treatment resistant depression
I have TRD treatment-resistant depression for over 20 years. I used to always exercise out of it through many episodes of it.
this time I could not exercise anymore and have done ketamine, TMS. Ketamine had worked fine for the last 2 episodes and not worked in my current 8 month one.
also if I stay awake the whole night the second day I will be ok, significantly out of TRD.
so I know there is something wrong with my brain.
Just keen on finding the right ways to correct it but not on my own exercise program, which is very hard that requires strong determination and motivation. Also I do not find going out or exercising make me feel good anymore.
since I am not working hard on my own to get out of this TRD. I can’t help myself and nobody else can. Everyone shuns me at this port. I don’t feel that I have any relationships in this world.
I basically stuck and make no progress towards recovery. I am just tired of fighting.