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    Competitive Sport

    By no means am I blaming football for my mental health problems. I have fond memories of playing sport and being part of a team/organisation. I was gifted with the ball and excelled on the pitch.

    It was my father who ruined my experience. It was not enough for my father to simply appreciate that his son was capable of running, jumping and kicking a ball. He brought along a competitive spirit that was not only embarrassing but toxic.

    I was skillful but I was not a naturally gifted athlete with any attributes that made me excel far beyond my years. I was playing in the year above and starting in the team but again this was not enough for my father who expected me to excel in the squad. I lacked in stature and athletic ability (speed mostly) and this would eventually lead to difficulties towards the end of my playing days.

    If I ever get around to having kids, I will think long and hard before enrolling them in to a competitive sport / environment. The problem with competitive sport is it breeds a mindset based on results. The schooling system is also guilty of this. I would like this post to focus on the issue of sports although I also experienced major issues at school.

    There is an argument for competitive sport but my overall consensus is it did me more harm than good. The need to be the best always critiquing how I played, never being satisfied and the game forever playing on my mind. For something that gave me very little it is very taxing on the psyche.

    My team disbanded and I was forced to join a new team in a more difficult league for which I was not prepared. The game was no longer fun and became serious business with everyone trying to make it to the senior squad where money was involved.

    It was a combination of life getting in the way of my dream of becoming a footballer and my own poor life choices. It takes a very strong willed individual to ignore the lights, girls & music and focus solely on the game. You need to be wiling to sacrifice for the sport. When I gave up on football, I started to experience identity issues as I felt the game made me who I was.

    My dad only wanted the best for me, so when I started to act out and started to steal it was a shock to him and he didn't know how to handle my behaviour.

    It wasn't until I stopped playing football and realised that the game had left me feeling empty and took a lot away from me. It also left me with a competitive streak that I sought to satisfy elsewhere. I felt deep sadness that my own stupid decisions had ruined my dream of becoming a footballer.

    In my later years I have trouble agreeing to be part of a team, group or association. Football is not the sole reason for this but adds to my mental problems associated with gang mentality. It also brings out an us against them mentality which I don't want anything to do with. Keeping to myself has brought on its own challenges and I fight with negative emotions most of the time as I come to terms with who I am.

    #self #Myself #Individual #Fear #solely #Responsible #scared #groups #people #Smoking #Drugs #Addiction #Drinking #gangs #ME #Sport #cutthroat #toxicmasculinity #goingout #lights #Music #Addiction #Depression #isolated #nobody #bymyself #Girls #Identity #competition #NotGoodEnough #best #First #winning #Success #failure #defeat #bottom #Fights #Life #Death #alone

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    Discussing Depression

    I feel like I came out twice—once as gay and once that I was experiencing depression. I remember lying to doctors all the time to not seem weak, but I felt unhappy and didn’t know how to talk about it. I felt particularly nervous to share being a man, as toxic masculinity frowns upon asking for help.

    This meme made me laugh, though. Who else is guilty of this? Comment below!

    We need to stop hiding. Sharing is therapeutic and half the battle. That’s why The Mighty helps so many people not feel alone. #MightyTogether #Anxiety #Depression #toxicmasculinity

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    Why is men’s mental health taboo?

    For centuries, men have been told to be strong. We are now realizing that this toxic masculinity leads to toxic behavior, whether that is hurting yourself or hurting others. Asking for help and receiving help is okay. In fact, it allows us to be one best selves.

    Comment or like if you can relate!

    #MightyTogether #Depression #Anxiety #toxicmasculinity #mentalheath #Shame #Fear #Cancer

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    Toxic Masculinity & Gender Presentation Suck Balls

    Today is one of those days where I hate the body I was born in.

    I was walking on the bike trail. There was a guy with his dog on the other side. The dog wanted to say hello. But the guy jerked her away and ignored me.

    Men can really be total douches to strangers who don't possess a set of breasts. If I had been born a woman, he would've stopped and used his dog as a pickup line.

    I wish society would stop basing their treatment of others on what they think they see. I wish society would stop expecting me to butch up, move couches on demand, repair lawnmowers, or participate in fistfights.

    I wish I dressed more androgynously today.
    #LGBTQ #toxicmasculinity #GenderIdentity

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    Is it okay to ghost someone who is toxic and has had a negative impact on your life ? #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #toxicmasculinity #toxicex

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    5 things that we love about ourselves ❤

    In response to @sociallyanxiousdoll post yesterday on self-love I decided to make my own list of things I love about myself. My masculine self cringes from to idea of making such a list, not mentioning making such a list public. But there is some time since I first noticed my ideas on masculinity are social constructs, but not inherent as I somehow thought before. I note these ideas of masculinity as toxic since they do me only harm. Let me explain. Often I have wanted and indeed needed to ask for help because of matters of health, but did not because I didn't want to appear as weak. Continuing, I have often criticized my physical looks, at times criticizing lack of muscles, other times that I didn’t look thin enough. These toxic ideas can bar me actives good for me and encourage others not healthy, similarly they affect how perceive myself. So as not to reinforce my toxic ideas of masculinity I present my list of 5 things I love about myself:

    1. I have a kind heart.
    2. I am sensitive to the feeling of others.
    3. I am intelligent and can be a fast learner.
    4. I find meaning when people confide in me.
    5. I have a creative mind and tend think outside the box.

    To my surprise this is indeed not a complete list of things I love about myself!

    Kindly,
    Skúli

    #ChronicPain#ChronicFatigueSyndrome#Anxiety#PTSD#MajorDepressiveDisorder#toxicmasculinity

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