NotGoodEnough

Struggling with fears of being inept and always feeling like I’m dropping the ball somewhere. While I also struggle with deepening depression and fear from ptsd I want to talk to a friend or reach out to someone somewhere or even scream but I always remain silent and now I feel more stuck than ever! I can always give great advice to friends and I’d drop everything anytime at a moments notice to help anyone truly but when it comes to be I can not take my own words to heart I offer to others….I feel lost and alone!🥹😢😶

#PTSD  #Depression  #NotGoodEnough #help #ADHD  #Epilepsy  #Migraine 

I have been feeling this way for quite some time now. I try to lessen it by looking at good things I’ve accomplished, but the mean little voice in my head tells me I’m just being conceited and counters with all the mistakes I’ve made in life. I can’t seem to shake it.

I don’t understand why I’m punishing myself. Usually I feel this way for shorter periods and then life will brighten again. It’s so hard. I keep remembering other people in my life at different times telling me my physical flaws and my faults and criticizing the things I do. You would think that I’d be over all of this in my 60s, but I still feel I’m not good enough. I can’t seem to break free.

I’m trying to spend time working in my garden in the sunshine to hopefully make this feeling go away. #NotGoodEnough

Basically I feel like I need to “fix” me by engaging in eating disorder behaviors since I can’t seem to be in a relationship which then leads to feeling depressed and alone. Pretty great!

I am now 41 years old. My mom almost always points out what I'm doing wrong or what I should or shouldn't do. I have a full time job. My house is paid for. I'm also a single mother to my 15 year old son. I used to had to depend on her for help with him until this past year. I have a boyfriend now. We have been dating a little over a year now. He has a 12 year old daughter. My mom thinks that he is pushing me to let him move in with me. Sure we have discussed it but it hasn't happened yet. I'm not letting anyone pressure me into doing something that I don't want to do. She questions everything that I do. She finds fault with almost anything I do. None of my choices are good enough for her. I love my mom, I really do. I just cannot handle her being so critical of my every decision and every move I make. I honestly don't know what to do because anytime I bring it up it starts an argument between us. She then starts with the poor pitiful me act and turns the whole thing against herself by saying she can't do anything right or make anyone happy. I'm at a loss! Any opinions, suggestions, and or ideas are much appreciated!#narcissisticmom #narcissist #narcissiticmother #mother #Controlling #NotGoodEnough

Do you ever just feel that you’re not good enough. That you just don’t deserve happiness or that you’re just never gonna get happiness. I’m always afraid of that. I’m always afraid that I’m never gonna find anyone and I’m just going to be alone forever. I ever since my mom died when I was 11 I feel like there’s a part of me that’s missing. And everyone is getting Married and having kids and I am just stuck. Some days it’s fine other times at night especially that’s when all the thoughts come. #NotGoodEnough #Foreveralone

It wasn't supposed to be like this. It's bad enough to grieve the loss of my old life but the man I thought loved me even though my accident changed everything, the man who talked with me about buying a home together, building our future and growing old together... has now expressed that I'm too messed up and he doesn't want me anymore. I'm to move out before rent is due again.

I can't even process it all. I have to give up my dogs, my home, my cat, my plans for the future... because I'm not worth it/too messed up? How can this be happening? #SuicidalThoughts #SuicidalIdeation #depressed #fearofnevergettingbetter #MajorDepressiveDisorder #Anxiety #TraumaticBrainInjury #DentateCerebellarAtaxia #PTSD #CPTSD #NotGoodEnough

Physically sick, so much pain, I feel like I can't go on

#Disability
#EssentialTremor
#ChronicPain
#chronicillness
#Friendlessness
#Alonewithnosupport
#alone
#Pain
#GroinStrain
#GroinPull
#NotGoodEnough
#unloveable
#inthisalone
#Upallnight
#noshame
#Lonliness
#Weak
#done
#Selfcare
#Selfesteem
#Acceptance
#inthisalone
#checkinwithfriendsonline
#CheckInWithMe
#checkinonme
#CheerMeOn
#SleepDeprivation
#hurt
#hurting
#Hurtstobealone
#hurtallover