Accomplishments

When I got sick with dysautonomia I was in 6th grade and the night i got sick I was finally working on my self, I was practicing for a 9min mile which my time had gone from 15min to 11 but one night I got a horrible ear pain and my ear poped at 3am and from there on out I have just been sick not able todo anything I’m at the end of 8th grade now but today I finally did it I was able to get up and go for a walk after my walk I was pretty tired but I finally did I EVEN cooked dinner for me and my mom today was finally a really good day but now I’m scared a big reason I have not been going on walks or doing yoga or doing the activities I used to love todo is because I’m scared I’m scared that I’m gonna get really really bad agin how do I push that fear away to be able to enjoy life agin I’m always afraid that getting better means that I’m just gonna get worse all over agin. Any #Tips ?

I’m having a good week. So far I’ve:

Cleaned and tidied my entire flat
Done all my laundry
Dyed my hair
Been grocery shopping
Been on a 10 mile bike ride
Not missed a meal
Remembered to take my meds

And it’s only Tuesday! I feel very accomplished about my week so far 😊 #Spoonie #spooniewins #Anxiety #Depression #ChronicIllness #Accomplishments

I have been addicted to using my computer for so long. Sometimes even to an unhealthy binge. I used to be so involved with it, you couldn’t pull me away from it without having a snarky reply to a request.

Today I managed to sell my computer. The one thing that I have been obsessed with using for such a long time. I used to game so much on it that I never really progressed. I am so happy with myself right now because I thought I would have it for so long. This is awesome because I am really proud of myself!

#Addiction #Anxiety #Accomplishments

Hey, I joined the mighty app a few months ago. I have found it really helpful and is the only platform that I see as a safe space. Nonetheless, I am still consumed by anxiety when I think about or try to post. I have OCD and I overthink and over analyze just about everything. Everything I do has to live up to these extremely unrealistic expectations that I set for myself and only myself. So, something as simple as posting sends my mind into a frenzy and the dominos begin to fall. Anxiety ->perfectionism->obsession-> failure to meet expectations -> panic -> crippled by panic -> *crash* and I give up. Then I walk away and begin the endless cycle of avoidance, procrastination, resentment and guilt.

It’s a lose lose situation. Trying to post makes me uncomfortable and not posting makes me uncomfortable.

Even writing about how uncomfortable I am about this makes me uncomfortable hahaha.

But that’s okay. Being uncomfortable is a part of life and today I’m choosing to fight through it.

And guess what? I did it and I’m so damn proud of myself!

Sending love and a big hug to anyone who could use one.

Happy Holidays!

#Anxiety #PanicDisorder #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #Unrealisticexpectations #perfectionism #Avoidance #Procrastination #resentment #Guilt #Uncomfortable #proud #Accomplishments #firstpost #progress #MentalHealth

I got got up early and made breakfast for hubby ~ daughter and washed some dishes and changes sheets on our bed.
#Anxiety