Nothing is more comforting to me than searching Pinterest in how I’m feeling when I become the monster under the bed off and on during the week. I have thousands of heartfelt quotes which in a way keep track of how I’ve been feeling over the years in times of depression and anxiety/panic. Most times it’s within my relationships; whether it be my friends or family, or my lover. It’s sometimes about when I feel alone in life with having Albright’s Hereditary Osteodystrophy: one of the most rare medical conditions in the world. I have NEVER seen another person like me. Ever.
Majority of the time, people tell me to suck it up and that I’m not as bad as some people. Sure. Maybe it sounds easy to the “healthy” person, but not to the person with feelings of alienation and misunderstanding. I have my breakdowns when I can’t seem to get out what I want to say the way I intended it to come out, I have times when I get so sensitive that as soon as someone sounds like they’re disappointed when they call me over I begin tearing up. I have anger issues when I’m not being listened to and when I can’t do something right. I have crying sessions in my room when my family comes home for holidays because I never have anything to contribute to conversations. And just about every day so far, I’ve been feeling depressed because I cant seem to grasp how to communicate with anyone. I have massive fears of judgement and imagining myself in the later half of my lifetime makes me cringe because I’m not sure what’s to come. I make so many goals for myself but yet nothing goes right.
All I can really say is that this is this one thing that keeps me padding myself along. Having being born with such obsticals has created mental health issues which have manifested over the years to the point where I’m not sure who I am anymore. That’s why I created my board called “Finding Me”. #Anxiety #Depression #FunctioningDepression #PanicAttacks #MentalHealth #Memes #Trichotillomania #alone #ADHD #RareDisorder