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My Impending Doom (non-suicidal)
When I was around the age of 31, I had a dream that I wouldn't make it past 36. It has strangely stuck with me all these years and now I'm 34 and in less then half a year will be 35. I can't shake this feeling of early death. To be frank, I tried to take my life at 12 and had no plans of making it to 20. Then James (my husband) came into my life and that all changed. I've always felt like I was on borrowed time, like I was supposed to die, but something went wrong. I also sometimes feel like I'm still that 12 year old slowly dying and my life up to this point has been in the head of my preteen self. Is it just old habits of mine? I can't get rid of this cloud of death that sits over the horizon. And I am slowly nearing it and have still so much to do. (Finishing writing my books. Get my art out somewhere other than local) #Depression #Death #Suicide #Love #writer #Hope #artist
