battles

Today has been the worst. My emotions are seriously hammering me down. I feel weak for crying and a burden. I'd rather help many others than my own self. I just cannot allow myself to just break a little and cry. It hurts. Everyday I'm trying my best. Just need this pain and suffering to go away a little. 😢🙏

Maybe I’m a bit emotional. Trigger warning!

As someone who has struggled with being below normal weight (since birth might I add) I have never been “normal” (worst word in all the languages that have/will/are currently in use)when it comes to size.

I was a tiny little baby, I was a skinny toddler, my cheeks have never been chubby, I’ve never had a belly and I’ve never been comfortable in my own skin. No 5 year old should be self consious abou t how they look! No 21 year old should be sent for counseling by a university professor for avoiding food at a university gathering. No 25 year old should have soon-to-be (extended) family members telling them that they should eat more they look sickly. No one should EVER say something to anyone about their health unless they know the person very VERY EXTREMELY well!!!!!!

People who suffer from #Anorexia don’t think they should eat more because you said so, if anything I’ll be avoiding food even more now because then you can’t watch what I eat if I don’t. Eating disorders and body dismorphia are very real health issues that people struggle with, it is also much more a disturbance to daily life.

I know I have to eat or I will not be alive and become very sick. I’ve been very sick. I am aware that I control my #AnorexiaNervosa and not the other way around but, I am fighting a battle against my own instinct here. From my own personal experience I have found that I get triggered by people commenting on how much I eat and what I eat more than seeing pictures or media platforms. I’m different others don’t care what people say. Whatever you triggers are they are yours. The triggers for any mental or physical or emotional or physiological or any other category of illness are wide and diverse and unique to each individual. Don’t say things because you think it’s funny but you know it’s offensive or can hurt someone.

The moral of the story is, don’t comment, think just what you want but don’t say it. People’s battles are much harder and the effects are much deeper than you know.

#BeAware #AnorexiaNervosa #EatingDisorders #DontCommen #battles

"all will be alright in time"
maybe when we learned all the #Lessons life teaches us. maybe when we fought strong all the #battles . maybe when we finally stood up from our #fall . maybe that’s the #time we can say “we’re fine”. we’re still #alive after all, a thing to be grateful for. because all our labour is never in vain. and it’s a matter of time and perspective till we get there. so hang on!

I have #n .E.A.D,#Fibromyalgia #chronic PAIN,P.T.S.D,#BackPain , I'M A MUM TO A #Autistic #PDA #SPD BOY.

Life is a daily struggle flooded with #Fatigue #Pain and constant #battles I'm so #Drained #mentally #exhausted and no #fight left in me, how am i meant to get through another #Challenging #year 😪😪😪😪😪😪😪

We are the wounded few
We fought battles unlike any other
We fight
We may lose something along the way
But if we fought hard enough,
We won.

We are the few that are scarred
Scarred from battles past
We may live in the past sometimes
But these scars show,
We survived.

We are the scared few
We are scared of the future,
Of things we can and can't control.
But we can control our future.
We will conquer our fears.

We fight battles
All of us.
We have stories
All of us.
We are scared.
All of us.
We are all the same.
Every single one of us.

#Depression #Anxiety #MentalHealth #MightyPoets #stories #battles #weallhavestories #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Poetry