FeelingAlone

I keep agreeing to everything everyone else wants to keep the peace
My dad has been living with me for 2 years
My partner recently moved in and the two of them hate each other
I told my dad he has to move out by the end of this month
At first my partner told me if my dad isn’t moved out by the 28th he needs us to take a break
(Last time he told me what a break would look like it would be him leaving no contact and no set date of when it would end
That scares me to the max)
Then he said he wants us to stay at his parents until my dad moves out
He definitely made the decision for us to stay with his family
(It’s not that I don’t like his family. I love them)
I just like being in my own space my house with my things close to my work
But I am at his family’s house
I can’t cry out loud because I want to be respectful
I just want to be able to feel like I can go about freely without thinking about anyone else if that makes sense

This was a rant I guess I’m sorry to whoever actually reads it

#Depression
#Anxiety #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #FeelingAlone

Have you ever had someone tell you that they want you to share how you feel and be honest, but then you tell them and they shut you down and say you drain them?
Because currently I’m going through that and now I’m unsure of what I can say and not say.
I know it’s important to be honest but I think right now I have to keep bottling things up to make my loved feel at ease.

#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BipolarDisorder #Depression #Anxiety #FeelingAlone

Looking for friends to chat with.. #blah #overwhelmed #FeelingAlone

I fell apart today, not wanting to exist. Feeling alone . Feeling like such a burden . Hearing my own kid tell me to shut up and be a parent. Meanwhile feeling like I should just do “ it” . No I don’t plan on doing it but the thoughts have been rolling in. Crying nonstop feeling like I’m having a heart attack. Feeling like a horrible mother cause I don’t have the energy to do my “ job” as a parent. Losing my appetite, sleeping too much , crying on and off. I’m just tired.

Hi everyone. Complete newbie to the mighty and it's community. I am a Mum of 2 teens and married. I am disabled and struggling with life in general. I have CFS/ME, Chronic migraines including hemiplegic migraines and migraines with brainstem aura all of which make it impossible to work or live independently anymore. I also have T2 diabetes, an underactive thyroid and have 2 ruptured disce in my lower spine (due to weakness from damage at 14 by a bully pulling a stool out from under me 🤬) which are impacting some nerves causing pain, sometimes so intense I'm bed bound for weeks at a time. I have a history of depression as a result of childhood trauma which carried on into adult life until just a few years ago. In the last month I have been diagnosed with EUPD/BPD with complex trauma. I suffer with suicidal ideation and have done since a child. Over the last year or so it has become a lot worse. A month ago I had made a full plan and if my husband hadn't been so attuned I wouldn't be here today. I was violated by a female doctor in 2007 whilst in hospital fighting for mine and my unborn childs life. My mum died 7 months later then 3 months after that my dad got together with my husbands mum. They then processeded to rip our families apart whilst mine just wanted to grieve. My life feels utterly out of my control. I stopped work as an early years educator permanently Dec 2019 and feel like I've lost the only identity and confidence I had. Im a very outdoors person and love exploring but just cant do it anymore unless its accessible by mobility scooter. I feel broken and worthless. Most of my friends have fallen away the less I was able to get to the school gates and now I have 1 maybe 2 left. All my family have accused me of faking and making it up so I can get away with being lazy! My sister, who is a nurse, even went as far as accusations of munchausen syndrome!! I have never felt more hurt and less seen in all my life. So it's just my husband and I and our children having to cope with all the fallout alone. And I feel like I have to cope with my failing body and brain alone. I keep so so much inside and hidden. #FeelingAlone #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Childhoodtrauma #ChronicFatigue #ChronicMigraineSyndrome #CheckInWithMe

I’m so tired of feeling like this….tbh I don’t think my relationship is gonna last cuz I’m fed up with my bf and his lies|cheating😡 #FeelingAlone #toxicrelationship

I don’t know why I continue putting myself through this bs…. I truly love this man but don’t think the feeling is mutual…Why is he still with me??!? #Depression #FeelingAlone #Lovelost #Selfhate

Everyone wants to give me resources, not knowing how exhausting it is to sort through them all and reach out to them all, only to be refused or told to call or contact somewhere else. I feel burned out on even trying to help myself.

I know that I have to "do the work," I just wish I had someone helping me more than giving me endless resources to research and navigate.

#imtired #burnedout #Tiredofbeingtired #Health #MentalHealth #exhaustion #FeelingAlone