I started having pains in my body, asthma attacks, anxiety, depression, stomach pains, ulcer, migraine eleven years ago.
It got worse as time went on, my parents would abuse me emotionally everyday. They said i was hiding behind my health, shout at me when i can work at my siblings pace, i was admitted atleast twice every month
My teachers in high school then, said all sort of trash to me, getting home i had to face my parents trouble.
Things didnt get better, said i was a burden, that i was pretending so i wont work, were never proud of me no matter how i tried. I would cry myself to sleep everynight. Doctors didn't have answers, they kept saying you have malaria, infection or peptic ulcer. Some days they just admit but dnt have an answer for what they are treating me for.
During my University days, I studied civil engineering but i blamed myself, spent 3/4 of my uni at the hospital. Yet my father looked at me with disgust that why didnt i finish with a first class. I wrote my finals in pain, read at the hospital.
Two years ago, A doctor finally had answers to my health. He told me i had fibromyalgia after suffering from emotional trauma, depression, constant shaming, stress. My parents refused, saying that God forbid. I cried everyday but my parents said you need to exercise, you need to work, that i just wanted them to say sorry and get their attention
My junior sister had to fight for me, i was too tired and exhausted to fight them any longer.
Finally, i was properly diagnosed with fibromyalgia, asthma and depression last year August/September.
Unfortunately things had gone bad. The Rheumatologist said that my fibromyalgia is the worst case he had seen. I went for my masters in south Africa but things has gone terribly bad.
I still need answers, but they keep saying there is nothing they can do. My legs shakes uncontrollable, i cant even stand for 5 -10 minutes without a severe pain. It has affected my studiea badly.
My parents still dnt understand and they are still in denial.
I just wanted to pour out my mind. Thank you for listening #FibromyalgiaDiagnosis