fibro fog

Snack, snock....sock!!!

In my house it is a guessing game as to what it is I'm trying to say. I've started just to keep saying words or ones that are nonsense until I finally land on the right combo. It ends up being hilarious sometimes.😆

I was watching a new movie tonight and it was really great, called, The Wish Dragon. It is produced by Jackie Chan so of course I was in. It was slightly familiar as the scenes unfolded. Like dejavu. Then I realized I had seen it before. I said to my family, "Whoa! I like having short term memory loss...it's a new movie every time!". They are used to me watching a movie with them and completely forgetting it. Sometimes I am halfway through it before I start to remember. I used to get freaked out by it. Now I just enjoy seeing a new release that's been out for years lol.

Caught COVID a couple weeks ago thanks to my spouse’s careless boss (he came to work knowingly sick and infected literally half of their office in one go). Too tired to say much still. COVID was thankfully relatively mild but caused fibro flares and now an ME crash. I’m so tired but I have to go back to work as I’ve avoided telling my employer about my chronic conditions and I have crucial work going on. It was a bad time to get sick and a worse time for a crash. Feeling very isolated and like no one in my world understands what it’s like to live with chronic conditions. No one seems to understand the misery watching the world develop a condition so much like the ones that have changed my life. Everyone treats long COVID like it will never happen to them or it’s not that bad but living with ME, I know the horror of watching your healthy life slip away. This has been my worry for 2 1/2 years and it finally happened. Sending best wishes to all the mighties. Please do everything you can to avoid COVID, cases are surging massively and case counts are undoubtably an underestimate. This thing isn’t over yet and probably never will be. #COVID19 #MyalgicEncephalomyelitis #Fibromyalgia #FibroFog #longcovid

As a former musician/vocalist, music is my soul. It keeps me going and allows an outlet to cry and laugh and feel all the feels. One thing rock music hasn’t done is help my brain feel whole (I don’t know how to explain). I ran across mashups. A lot are sensory overloads. But some, I swear it’s like the songs engage both sides of my brain at once and I feel balanced. Like my brain isn’t jumping back and forth. Best 2 examples so far are Psy’s Gangnam Style/Ghostbusters and surface pressure/how far I’ll go. youtu.be/82LCKBdjywQ
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I had a really bad shift last night. I work in postpartum nursing and it was a really busy night. Lots of babies born and ppl in labor. I just couldn't get going. My executive functioning skills were MIA. My brainfog was so bad I felt kind of dissociated from everything going on. Not actual disassociation, just rly rly bad brain fog. I was completely off, like my instincts and knowledge were all jumbled. Didn't get a lot done and then the next girl who came on for night shift was rly upset w me bc she thought i hadn't done anything. I took my adderall and had caffeine but just couldn't get my brain on. This morning, I'm still exchausted & rly foggy. Im so sick of this.