ghosted

Ugh. Sorry I disappeared. I ended up with pneumonia AND the flu! I’m at home. But NOT smoking yet. Thank you for oil!!!
#sick #pnemonia #ghosted #lol #OilForTheWin #ILoveMymedicine !

I reached out to a friend last week via email. His birthday popped up on my calendar. We hadn't spoken since late March. I don't know why, but he just ghosted me at the start of the pandemic. When I reached out I made it clear that he was not obligated to respond. That I just wanted to wish him well and let him that know I enjoyed the time we had spent together(mostly). I told him I know that we had some issues. But all in all I thought we had a good run and that sometimes friendships just have an end date. And it was okay. Honestly, I didn't want him to write back or contact me. I just needed some closure on our friendship. Everything had been left hanging. Basically, I just wanted to say a proper good bye.

Full disclosure -- we had dated before we were friends. We just weren't compatible as serious partners. We have known each other almost 3 years.

He did write back immediately, seemingly very happy to hear from me. We exchanged a few emails and he kept asking about calling me. I tried to keep things light. But finally I just gave in and gave him my number, which he said he had "lost". Which was odd.

We had a lovely conversation when we talked. He asked me to send him pictures of the holiday drive thru light show I was going to that evening. He wanted me to visit him next time I'm in his area. That was last Saturday afternoon. I texted him three times between Saturday night and Sunday. He's never returned my text or sent me an email.

Ghosted again. It hurts.  I feel like I let myself get pulled in so I can be spit out again.

Why didn't he just let me say good bye like I originally wanted?

The GD pandemic is so hard as it is with constant isolation and bouts of loneliness. This event just kind of floored me.

It's been such a good holiday so far. My holiday depression aka Christmas Blues has been totally manageable.  Now I just feel like crap. I don't want to sink in to a depression. I was doing so well!

Does it ever occur to people how their behavior can be hurtful?

Thanks for letting me vent.

Sorry this was so wordy.

#Depression

Hi Mighties! This is my first post here 😊
I have been struggling with a friend cutting off contact with me suddenly. I really cared about them and it really, really bothered me as to why. I mentally beat myself up about it over and over, and I had been feeling so horrible. I am feeling much better since I have been engaging with so many great people here. Thank you 😊
I came across this pic and it resonated with me, so I thought I'd share.

#Depression
#Anxiety
#CPTSD
#HSP
#ghosted
#Loneliness

youtu.be/sI6hApZPv7A

“After all the time
After you
Had you seen me with someone new
Hanging so high for your return
But the stillness is a burn
Had I seen it in your eyes
There'd have been no try after try
Your leaving had no goodbye
Had I just seen one in your eyes
I can't give it up
To someone else's touch
Because I care too much
I can't give it up
To someone else's touch
Because I care too much
Could you tell
I was left lost and lonely
Could you tell
Things ain't worked out my way
Wish the best for you
Wish the best for me
Wished for infinity
If that ain't me
Give it up
I can't give it up
Give it up
I can't give it up
I can't give it up
To someone else's touch
Because I care too much
I can't give it up
To someone else's touch
Because I care too much
Give it up, I can't give it up”

I guess I’m the asshole because I actually give a shit

#sad #SuicidalThoughts #SuicideAttemptSurvivors #ChronicPain #Fibromyalgia #ChronicIllness #ghosted #TakeItOneDayAtATime #Loneliness #lonely #SuicideIdeation