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I feel like a burden to my family and people I have chosen to be around me. Because no one understands, no one notices. No one. And through my sleepless nights I see texts through WhatsApp groups of people talking to each other, understanding each other...
When I try to be open it goes quiet and I can feel the silence...
And a different conversation will start because no one knows what to say to my broken...
If you feel this way aswell I am hear for you. What we pass through not many will understand so through The Mighty, talk to me because I need you even if or when you do not want to talk to me.... #foryourpage #Despression #alone #lonley #iamhere #Talk #talktome #youarenitalone

How do I put into words what it is that I am feeling right now? I am confused and wishing I could be just neutral.

I went shopping a little while ago, and on my way home my husband called me. He told me I should not have went shopping and spent money. I bought him some things for father's day and when I mentioned I got him some things, he became upset. It is because I don't have a job. He was upset with me about us having one income and going shopping.

He told me to not put up roadblocks into me finding a job, or doing what it is that I want to do. Professionalism is not something that comes easy for me, and with my mental health issues it's harder than that of a person without them. It is not an excuse to stay where I am, but it does not make it as easy as someone else's level of difficulty. I know everyone experiences difficulties. I swear it will be OK. I just have to find something that I love to do and go for it.

Today is a day of mixed emotions. It's driving me nuts... But it's something that I have to deal with. I am hoping for a better tomorrow since today is a Mix of a Mess and a Blessing.

Take Care.

#Love #Trying #iamhere #sad #happy #MixedMood #Depression #Anxiety #BipolarDisorder #jobless #lonely #notalone #up &Down #PanicAttack #PanicDisorder #Crazy #Wild #calm #confused #shoppingaddiction #Mourning #grieving #Grief #FathersDay #dowhatyoulove #lovewhatyoudo #Loveislove #PrideMonth #Trying #doing

This makes me feel like I can do anything.

#strongasabull
#nothingcanstopme
#iamhere