How do I put into words what it is that I am feeling right now? I am confused and wishing I could be just neutral.
I went shopping a little while ago, and on my way home my husband called me. He told me I should not have went shopping and spent money. I bought him some things for father's day and when I mentioned I got him some things, he became upset. It is because I don't have a job. He was upset with me about us having one income and going shopping.
He told me to not put up roadblocks into me finding a job, or doing what it is that I want to do. Professionalism is not something that comes easy for me, and with my mental health issues it's harder than that of a person without them. It is not an excuse to stay where I am, but it does not make it as easy as someone else's level of difficulty. I know everyone experiences difficulties. I swear it will be OK. I just have to find something that I love to do and go for it.
Today is a day of mixed emotions. It's driving me nuts... But it's something that I have to deal with. I am hoping for a better tomorrow since today is a Mix of a Mess and a Blessing.
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How do I put into words what my thoughts bring to me? There were times were my therapist in the past would tell me that all feelings come from thoughts.
But what if what you're feeling can inspire what you are thinking instead? Humm.
Today I thought about my memorial day weekend. Yesterday was good because I went food shopping. It was amazing because I did not "freak out" at the store. Usually I order my groceries and pick them up, but otherwise when I go with someone to grocery shop I do not feel bad. What did you guys do over the weekend???
I had to resign from my job back in June due to major depression/insomnia and being unable to function. After some med adjustments I am slowly starting to feel a bit better. I am terrified of finding a new job, or even putting myself back out there. Feeling pretty purposeless and rudderless at the moment and wondering if anyone had any words of guidance for someone feeling like starting over is a monumental undertaking or even where to begin. I feel like I've been such a shut-in for so long. Please help! #Anxiety #startingover #Jobhunting #scared #anxious #wheretobegin
Just lost at this point! I'm 38 and have NEVER been fired from a job in my LIFE! I have no idea how to prove it but it's because I've missed work, on approved Intermittent Leave of Absence for my son's Autism! They are claiming I'm not able to keep up with my workload , which I was, because of my absences.. but my absences are covered and I have done everything in my power to work weekends, go in early/ stay late and work through ALL of my lunches to keep up and I am! We have another team member that dealt with breast cancer, never went on FMLA and is consistently behind me with her work but she's never even been talked to about her work. My supervisors boss does NOT like me and hasn't since the day he started. While walking out with my supervisor who hadn't said anything other than reading through her paperwork I asked her so are we not even allowed to talk? She said she was just trying to keep it together; that her heart was pounding and she was about to cry. I looked at her and said 'It was Derrick wasn't it?' She put her head down and just whispered that she couldn't say anything. Y'all this is a large city that I worked for... my mind is just spinning right now and yes there's di much more that led up to this but it's ALL regarding absences covered under FMLA. Thanks all! Just needed to vent and I appreciate being allowed to do so here! ❤
Hello, I'm Amanda and I'm 22 years old. I live in Jamaica and there's no support for people unable to work here. I have fibromyalgia amongst a tonne of other conditions like dysautonomia, pancreatic insufficiency and mesial temporal sclerosis to name a few. I'm not able to work and I've been trying to run an online shop but I get no sales. I'm not able to use gofundme to raise money because of my location and I'm burnt out. I have no income and no freedom. I don't know what else to do or what other avenue to try. I'm on my last rope. #help #ChronicIllness #jobless #depressed