Does anyone else find this time of year brings a significant increase in upsetting symptoms of #Anxiety and #Depression .
I am autistic and only in the past 4 years I have found it an increasingly stressful time of year.
I'm more prone to meltdown, feeling apathy and low mood and definitely lost all "Christmas Spirit"
I go along with it all for the benefit of my children, we make things and decorate the house, but I no longer feel excitement or joy. My husband is very supportive.
This year is especially tough as I had #COVID19 in March, and ever since I've been a #longcovid / #longhauler still suffering with residual illness, which induced a long #Depression episode during the summer, I'm only just coming through but I'm no where near better yet.
I feel #Christmas and the pressure to be 'happy joyful skipping around singing carols' whilst having a bustling social life is really oppressive ( especially when you feel so bad you cant even use WhatsApp or leave the house) its a massive negative influence on my mood. It's sad but I wish it was all over by now
I'm so apathetic this weekend we just received our new car we had worked so hard to save for and I couldn't care less. I feel so ungrateful. This isnt like me at all. I love cars!
I dont have good #Relationships at the moment either (I'm sure many of you with #Longtermillness can relate) my 'friends' all disappeared when I didnt get better immediately. I fell out with my sisters too as they planned a whole family vacation without my family. (And kept it a secret) bearing in mind it is for next year I'd hopefully of been well to go.
So it's very upsetting seeing all the lovely (but fake) advets of families and friends having the time of their lives on tv social media etc.
Does anybody else feel this way each year? The pressure to be happy and have these unrealistic amazing experiences at #Christmas and feeling bad and anxious in the lead up to it?
I used to relish and look forward to it. (I'm only 33 and only been feeling this way about 4 years now)
Sorry for the rant I feel so guilty to not be feeling like mrs Christmas