I Just Want My People To Understand What My Everydays Are Like…
I’m not new here, but this is my first time expressing myself. I was first Dx w/ Fibromyalgia in 2013, I didn’t let it define me! I was hit hard in 2018 with #Gastroparesis . A few months later, Hypermobile Ehlers Danlos Syndrome (although I knew I had #hypermobileehlers-DanlosSyndrome(hEDS), I just didn’t know it was a disease… I was a gymnast childhood - early HS). Then came one diagnosis after another. Whammo!!! #POTS , #MCAS , Small Fiber Neuropathy, etc,. So from 2018-Present. I have 15 confirmed diagnosed chronic diseases. I have not driven in a little over 2 yrs b/c of POTS & fainting, & it really sucks!!
All of my local friends have gone. My college roommates (7) & I have a daily group chat going. Nobody (1 roommate does) ever checks in with me to see how I am. Everyday I’m completely #Fatigued . I have #ChronicPain everywhere!!! I’m #nauseous . I have #chronicdiarrhea & #chronicconstipation . I have #ChronicMigraines It hurts to walk. The rapid electric zaps from the #SFN is excruciatingly painful. My #RheumatoidArthritis & my #Osteoarthritis & now #Facetarthritis in my cervical spine has become so debilitating.
I don’t want to be a downer, but I would friends/family just to text & say "Hi, I was just thinking about you, I hope today is better than yesterday… remember I always love you!" This way they don’t have to ask how I am doing, thereby don’t get an answer full of negativity, but at least I know that I’m still in their thoughts!
I’m angry. I’m depressed. I’m sad. I’m lonely. I’m #housebound . I’m bored.