i don’t know if he likes me or if he’s just being nice. but it’s tearing me apart
hey.
i’m new here and honestly, i don’t even know how to start this.
have you ever cared about someone so much — someone you’ve never even met in real life — and it just hurts because you have no idea if they feel the same?
there’s this guy. i met him online months ago. we send each other cute messages, share songs, joke around in ways that make my heart ache in the best (and worst) way.
he once called me “precious and cute” and i literally smiled so hard it hurt… and then cried later because i didn’t know what it meant.
he’s always out with his friends, always surrounded by people — especially other guys — and i just feel... alone.
i don’t know if he talks to everyone like this or if i’m somehow different.
because if i am, maybe there’s something real here.
but if not... then what am i doing to myself?
i’ve written songs for him, shared music just hoping he’ll listen.
sometimes i post stories just for him to see.
i know it sounds like a teen movie cliché, but for me it’s so real.
and i think i’m starting to lose myself in this maybe-love, maybe-fantasy thing.
but i can’t let go.
not yet.
if anyone out there has ever felt this kind of quiet heartbreak, or just wants to talk, i’d love to hear from you.
maybe i’m not as alone in this as i think.
thanks for reading