Mania

Hi! I have confirmed CNS lupus (for details check my profile it’s just too much typing). I’m actually being made a case study. And i’m searching all over the internet trying to find another confirmed case of CNS lupus, from FB groups, to subreddits, to other specific forums so far no luck only people who think they have it (but if you did trust me you’d know- you have a psychotic break, mania, seizures, strokes, paranoia, auditory hallucinations). I’m just hoping maybe here i’ll get my lucky break and find the other CNS Lupus person trying to find me.

Hi, my name is StormyDragon5044. I'm here because my ex-husband has bipolar disorder, and there were times when he didn’t take his medication. During those periods, he experienced manic episodes, which included impulsive, unpredictable, and sometimes hurtful behavior. These episodes were very stressful for me and triggered my anxiety, making it hard to feel safe or secure in our relationship.

#MightyTogether #Anxiety #Depression #PTSD

What Is Bipolar Disorder?
Bipolar Disorder is a mental health condition that is characterized by extreme shifts in mood, energy, and activity levels, ranging from manic highs to depressive lows. On the other hand, symptoms of Bipolar Disorder include elevated energy, irritability, and risky behavior during manic episodes, and sadness, fatigue, and a loss of interest in activities during depressive episodes. Last but not least, Bipolar Disorder is manageable with ongoing treatment, which often includes medication, therapy, or a combination of both.

I’m riding the struggle bus today. Hell, I’m not just riding it, I’m driving it. I’m not sure what’s going on. I've been having a difficult time regulating my emotions this past week. It seems like one moment I’m okay and the next I’m crying. I’m exhausted. I’m sleeping more than normal. Some days, I can hardly stay awake. But despite how tired I am, when I am awake I’m talking a lot about various different things and my speech is faster than normal. I’m having episodes of intense anger that I’m struggling to hold back on.  I hate to think that I’m starting to have mixed episodes. I don’t want to go down that road again. Especially now when things are starting to finally fall in place. I work as needed at a crisis center as peer support and should hear back this week on whether or not I got the full time day position and I can’ t afford to lose my stability. Not right now. Not when things are so good. It scares me. The not knowing. I’m constantly trying to hold back my tears. I can’t let work see my weaknesses or else they may not give me the day position. I can’t let them think that I am not ready for this step. I don’t want to go back to living in the unknown. I like where I am right now. I like the feeling of stability. It makes me feel like I am a little more human, a little more normal. Like I’m not constantly riding the ups and downs of this bipolar roller coaster. I struggle knowing what the cause of my emotional dysregulation is. Is it just the cycle or is there something much deeper and darker at play?
#Bipolar1 #MentalHealth #Anxiety #PTSD #Depression #Manic

I’m riding the struggle bus today. Hell, I’m not just riding it, I’m driving it. I’m not sure what’s going on. I've been having a difficult time regulating my emotions this past week. It seems like one moment I’m okay and the next I’m crying. I’m exhausted. I’m sleeping more than normal. Some days, I can hardly stay awake. But despite how tired I am, when I am awake I’m talking a lot about various different things and my speech is faster than normal. I’m having episodes of intense anger that I’m struggling to hold back on.  I hate to think that I’m starting to have mixed episodes. I don’t want to go down that road again. Especially now when things are starting to finally fall in place. I work as needed at a crisis center as peer support and should hear back this week on whether or not I got the full time day position and I can’ t afford to lose my stability. Not right now. Not when things are so good. It scares me. The not knowing. I’m constantly trying to hold back my tears. I can’t let work see my weaknesses or else they may not give me the day position. I can’t let them think that I am not ready for this step. I don’t want to go back to living in the unknown. I like where I am right now. I like the feeling of stability. It makes me feel like I am a little more human, a little more normal. Like I’m not constantly riding the ups and downs of this bipolar roller coaster. I struggle knowing what the cause of my emotional dysregulation is. Is it just the cycle or is there something much deeper and darker at play?
#Bipolar1 #MentalHealth #Anxiety #PTSD #Depression #Manic