Motivated

Today I found out I have an interview with a mental health organizations outreach team. :) #ADHD #Motivated #MentalHealth #Addiction

Every choice that we make, no matter how small - reinforces the perception of #control and self-efficacy. And when we feel we are in control, we feel #Motivated - as to #motivate ourselves, we must feel in control.
Even if making a decision delivers no benefit, we still want the #freedom to #choose .
If you are struggling to complete something, some task - then CHOOSE to do the most interesting part of the task first.

When things are at their most measurable, WE should ask each other questions that begin with "WHY" - this helps in linking something hard to a choice we care about - and then it makes the task easier.
But if you want a mere escape, you want diversions - then the more choices you will be given or you'll seek for, the less satisfied you'll feel. And then you must be able to choose what you want to give up.
What are your #Thoughts on it?

P.S. This piece of writing has been #inspired by the #Book , The Power of Habit by Charles Duhigg. If you want answers to your own 'why we do, what we do', then this book is a must read.
Your comments are welcome.

I left a toxic job environment for a shiney, new job in the city. It paid more and challenged me from the start. I was excited to wake up and head to work. I loved my schedule (6am to 3pm). And the commute wasn't too bad.

Two weeks after I start, they announce that my job is being eliminated and our office is closing in favor of an office outside of Boston. This blindsided everyone. Over 200 jobs were being eliminated by Dec 31st.

I am not stressed over finding a new job. I really consider it an inconvenience more than anything. I am really devastated over how excited, gung ho and happy the whole office seemed until this EMAIL was sent out regarding the lay off. In interviews (I did four), the company was touted as GROWING and that it's presence in our city was for the LONG HAUL. They talked up a supposed contract with the city for tax cuts if they promised 5 years.

But the company didn't take the tax cuts. They knew they weren't going to remain in my city. They hyped us up, tricked us into given them our loyalty and ideas on how to build a proper support center. Now they're setting us out on the curb.

I'm not going to be eligible for unemployment and the severance will be minimal. I am just trying to keep myself together to find another job. It's so hard not to lay down and die. If I get a new job, what does it matter? That new place could be just as awful as my previous place and blindside me worse than my current place. There is no stability and I hate it. Temporary living situations drive me to suicide.

#Depression #Work #laidoff #lostmyjob

You know those random times where suddenly out of nowhere you have so much motivation to actually make the changes in you’re life that you need. Yh I’m kinda having that atm. I decided that I need to lose weight BUT instead of calling it a diet I’m just calling it a lifestyle change and instead of going gym I’m walking home from work instead getting an Uber and walking my dog for an extra 15-30mins etc.
I feel like the words diet and gym cause to much pressure but small lifestyle changes are just what’s needed and maybe from there I will eventually join a gym who knows.
Other than that I’m job hunting to as my current job makes me unhappy. I FINALLY sent of for my ID which I’ve needed for 3 years!!
Just small things to make life better really
Oh I’m also saving up to do my driving license and get a car. I need the freedom to drive wherever I want.
Let’s hope this motivation lasts a while cos I sure need it.
#Motivated #BPD #BPDDiagnosis #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

My personality makes it too heavy to be on someone's shoulders. That's why I carry myself, will sure do it with ease :)

The toughest battles aren't fought with others. It's fought with yourself. Emerge as the winner. Start the fight as the winner.

#Motivated #monday #kickass #fightingit #toughfights #goget