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    Clear Path

    So far this week I've been doing okay. I have a lot to be proud of myself for. Like I mentioned in a previous post, I can tell my story without getting too triggered. I can release all those pent up emotions that have been blocking my path. There are days when my anxiety acts up but I can move through it relatively easily now.

    There are so many things I am grateful for. I believe it is important to show gratitude. I am here and well (mostly). I have people that love me, I have a job and somewhere to live. It is the little things.

    I do my best to manage my physical and mental health. I am slowly healing from my past of abuse. I am slowly getting to where I want to be. My path continues to clear as I begin to love and accept myself and what I have survived. It is not an easy path. I still have days and sometimes weeks where the negativity seeps back in. But I continue to heal.

    The more I see the positive in my life the more clear my path will become. I am not going to tell you to stay positive because I know that advice doesn't always work but I will tell you to be grateful. Sometimes all it takes is a grateful heart. May you find what you are looking for and may your path clear for you too. Stay strong and you will be okay.

    #PTSD #BipolarDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #SexualAbuse #SexualAssault #strength #MightyTogether #Asthma #checkin #abusesurvivor #Selfharm #suicideattemptsurvivor #Healing #Writing

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    Suicide Attempt Survivor

    Being a Suicide Attempt Survivor

    Not until recently I was able to come to grips and admit to people that I have attempted suicide three times in my life. It was something I always held closely and under lock and key. I didn’t want to be judged or looked gone upon by others. My hardest suicide attempt to come to grips with was my second suicide attempt, suicide by hanging. This suicide attempt people knew I was going through a struggle and with this attempt I had marks to show what I had done. At first, I was able to downplay the marks on my neck as marks from shaving. Gradually people started to figure it out and this is when my suicide attempt which was already hard to grasps became even harder to grasp. I remember when the first two people figured it out and there first response was, I am selfish. Then came the next response that I am manipulative and attention seeking. This suicide attempt was related to an girlfriend that cheated on me and destroyed me mentally. So, I remember a few people telling me I got what I deserved both from her cheating and my mental state. The final unique response because many echoed the responses of others, was that I was a failure and that the nurse that was my coworker would teach me how to do it properly next time.

    Being a suicide attempt survivor is extremely hard because society is full of stereotypes and stigmas that degrade and devalue the struggles people go through with mental health. Instead of view a suicide attempt as an unanswered call for help, many people view it was a failure on the attempters part. Whether it be a failure to do it properly or a failure to control their mental health. Showing weakness is too often viewed as a negative thing, when in actuality it is a great strength.

    bipolartater.com/being-a-suicide-attempt-survivor

    #MentalHealth #BipolarDisorder #Suicide #SuicidePrevention #suicideattemptsurvivor #Depression

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    Learning

    Each day is a new opportunity to learn about yourself.

    Today I learned that my Disorganized/Fearful attachment style and my people pleasing are connected. That my trauma driven behaviors are actually the result of my attachment style.

    If you are curious and want to know what your style is, there are tons of quizzes online.

    I suggest taking one. It changed my perspective and helped me to understand what I need to change. I need to be more trusting and more mindful in my relationships.

    Slowly, I am learning what drives my behaviors and the more I know the more I can heal.

    #Trauma #PTSD #Abuse #AbuseSurvivors #suicideattemptsurvivor #selfharmsurvivor #Healing #learning #attachment

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    #SuicidalIdeation Is this a symptom for anyone else?

    When I go into a depressed episode because of my #BipolarDisorder or when my #PTSD acts up I start having those thoughts. Note: I do not act on them so I am not in danger. Just wondering if I’m alone in this. #suicideattemptsurvivor

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    I’M DEVASTATED! MY PSYCH TEAM OF SIX YEARS, IS BEING BROKEN UP TODAY, JUST SO I CAN BE ELIGIBLE FOR NEEDED MENTAL HEALTH SERVICES.

    <p>I’M DEVASTATED! MY PSYCH TEAM OF SIX YEARS, IS BEING BROKEN UP TODAY, JUST SO I CAN BE ELIGIBLE FOR NEEDED <a href="https://themighty.com/topic/mental-health/?label=MENTAL HEALTH" class="tm-embed-link  tm-autolink health-map" data-id="5b23ce5800553f33fe98c3a3" data-name="MENTAL HEALTH" title="MENTAL HEALTH" target="_blank">MENTAL HEALTH</a> SERVICES.</p>
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    Precious day.

    <p>Precious day.</p>
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    I Regret Failing

    I attempted suicide very recently. I was found the next day and near death by the time I got to the hospital but I survived. I regret failing. I wish it would have worked.

    I’m in the worst mental place I’ve ever been with very little support. But there’s nothing left to try. I’ve failed almost every single medication there is. I’ve failed TMS, and I’m too sensitive to side effects to do ECT or ketamine infusions. I’ve been in therapy for 8 years and though I’ve made improvements, there’s just too much trauma to work through.

    Is there any hope for a better future, for no more differing? Why was I saved and why am I fighting if there’s no chance for this to get better?

    #Suicide #suicideattemptsurvivor

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    Deep thoughts ❤

    <p>Deep thoughts ❤</p>
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    Art

    <p>Art</p>
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