AdultADHD

Lately my ADHD had been out of control, to put it lightly. It was suggested to me to try Adderall withhow bad it's been, so I spoke with my psychiatrist about it and he prescribed me a decent dose. Upon taking my first dose, I pretty well feel like a whole new person. My mind isn't racing, I can actually concentrate and slow down, I'm less impulsive, and I can still eat and hold conversations, just while calm and collected overall. It's a really nice feeling and I can't say what will work for everyone, but this prescription is definitely already helping me and my ADHD symptoms. I highly recommend it to those that can and should take it (and obviously don't take it if you want to use it unsafely or for recreational purposes. Anyways, just thought I'd share my happy news. I am enrolled to start college full-time extremely soon and I finally feel ready for it upon taking this medication. I'm so glad someone recommended it to me. ❤ #feelinggrateful #ADHD #AdultADHD #AttentionDeficitHyperactivityDisorder #medications #trialanderror #grateful

I have recently relocated to a new city for 3 months where I spent my whole childhood in. I have studied abroad for many years. I am experiencing tones of depressive symptoms trying to adapt such as self-blame, headaches, forgetfulness and anxiety. The work hour is very long here so I find it very hard to exercise. I recently got engaged with my partner for 5 years. But it seems like our relationship is suffering when I fail to listen but gets overwhelmed about her problems due to #ADHD . She is from where I study abroad so she has her own struggles too. As I struggle at work and low self-esteem, I’m getting more lonely and isolated. I’m really hoping things can improve but it seems like the psychiatrists (after seeing 3) here do not want to give out diagnosis #AdultADHD apart from medications to calm my anxiety #ChronicDepression #lowselfesteem

Working with my medical pro on med adjustment. Feel like I’m having an anxiety/panic attack but able to take deep breaths at the same time. Anyone else experience anything like this? #AdultADHD #xrvsir #straterratofocalin

It's tiring trying to be switched on and do 'normal' stuff. It's tiring and today I need to not. I need to curl up and rest. I give me permission.

Anyone else? Say I.

Also thank you for having me here. Newbie ADHD aware at 50 #AdultADHD #adhdaware #bekindtoyou

I'm 42 years old. Why the f**k do I still have urges to cut myself?!?!?! I gave in recently. Abiut an hour or so later I regretted it and felt like a fool! I cut in places most won't see.
#Selfharm #Cutting #AdultSelfHarm #AdultCutting #Bipolar #BipolarDisorder #BipolarDepression #Depression #bipolarmania #Mania #ADHD #AdultADHD

Since being diagnosed with ADHD I have been looking into helpful resources. I came across a YouTube channel called How To ADHD. One of the videos that really was a mental sucker punch is titled Dealing with Imposter Syndrome. Now while I don't identify with imposter syndrome as a whole one thing really stuck out for me. There was a part in it about "masking" where we put on a different mask for situations we don't think we are good enough for, but try anyway.

Even before the pandemic began and masks became a mandatory staple for nearly everyone I fell in love with them. I love woodworking and other crafts so I started getting them to protect my lungs from the dust. I started out with a mask from RZmask (not a sponsor) that had a really sweet design. After that I began seeing ads for SA Gear (also not a sponsor) with their neck sleeves so naturally I impulse bought one of their five pack sales and got a few for me and a couple for my wife.

I found that I loved the sensation of wearing a mask. At first I thought it was from my life long obsession with super heroes which is an entirely plausible explanation. Then nearly two years later I am officially diagnosed with ADHD and watching the video mentioned above and that's when it hit me.

I really love wearing masks because I am not entirely sure who I am at any given moment and putting a mask on helps relax. I may be a poster child for Lewis Carroll's quote in Alice's Adventures in Wonderland "I knew who I was this morning, but I've changed a few times since then." I know it sounds simple, but it really does give me a sense of safety and not just in the pandemic use.

I have also studied the enneagram personality test. According to that I am a type 9 which is somewhat erroneously dubbed "the peacemaker." This is certainly a whole different discussion, but when listening to a podcast about the subject I heard something interesting that aligns with what I have been saying here. When the podcast hosts were interviewing two people who also tested out as type 9's they talked about self erasure. This is something that happens to this personality type frequently. They stated that most of us have little to no sense of self and that we are mirrors of those around us. We draw cues from individuals and try to build something that looks like a functioning person, but it is just a facade. At the end of the day we have to erase our proverbial hard drive and build our new self tomorrow. This totally aligns with the masking part of imposter syndrome with shocking accuracy.

The fact that I have struggled with my sense of self for years is not at all surprising with all this that is now clarified. Thus wearing a mask allows me to be a version of me that I am learning to accept. It hides me from having to live up to unrealistic expectations that I have placed on myself trying to fit in to society.

Here are the links for items I spoke about:
How to ADHD: Imposter Syndrome
Enneagram podcast: content warning Expl

www.additudemag.com/adhd-in-women-recognizing-symptoms-in-adulthood

#ADHDInGirls #AdultADHD

Had a thorough few appointments with a neuropsychologist. FINALLY. After many, many years of turmoil and suffering searching for one; searching for someone to listen and take me seriously. I thought this was finally it.

WHAT do you do, though, when the doctor basically says to you that your SYMPTOMS are causing your symptoms???
Without even realizing it on their own that they’re saying something almost criminally absurd? And then leaves you with nothing. No answers.

I’m just sitting here crying and feeling like I can’t keep going on today… #Depression #Anxiety #ChronicPain #HEDS #EhlersDanlosSyndrome #Fibromyalgia #HashimotosThyroiditis #ThyroidCancer #ChronicMigraineSyndrome #chronicmigraine #BrainFog #SocialAnxiety #MigraineWithAura #DoctorVisit #DoctorShopping ?! #ADHD #AdultADHD #UndiagnosedADHD #ADHDInGirls #Adhdinwomen #Dyscalculia