The School bus shortage makes me feel like a bad parent since I can’t drive. #depression #mentalhealth #Dyslexia #LearningDisabilities
I found out in my thirties that I suffer from dyscalulia which is a math dyslexia. It can effects one’s ability to drive, sense of direction (directional dysfunction), and memory ect. I have bad memories of me missing the bus because I couldn’t remember where I was parked at school. I would even forget the number of the bus. I felt so unintelligent. I was so ashamed and embarrassed. Now it’s like those feelings of sadness have reserfaced through the nationwide school bus shortage. This school year is my kiddos first time ever riding the bus. Before we relocated we lived within walking distance to their school and therefore walked. When we moved I was filled with so much anxiety about their first time riding a bus to school that I literally stayed up all night. I was exhausted when I woke them up to get ready for their first day at a brand new school. They were as nervous as I was and ended up vomiting in class. I was called by the school nurse to pick them up. I ended up hauling an Uber to do that. I know that people with disabilities are in fact able to learn to drive. I actually have my drivers license but I never use it. Since I have trouble with remembering my left and rights, which say to go to get home, and experienced a car accident which was my fault. I adopted a car-free lifestyle. Now, my husband drives but, he works two towns over. And while the kids are in school we are without a vehicle. I don’t know what to do because their school bus have been having numerous days when they aren’t providing transportation. I am new to the area therefore I have zero friends and I don’t know the new neighbors. Luckily today the school counselor will be picking my kids up today for school. But, they informed me that I will have to figure out how they will be getting to and from school when the bus isn’t running. I wish that I lived somewhere with transport options but we live in a small town. I hope to move to Chicago or San Francisco where transportation is plentiful. Please send me good vibes because I feel horrible for not being able to provide my kids rides to school or any after school activities that they are interested in like gymnastics or birthday 🎉 parties. #PTSD #ChildhoodDisorders