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I’m new here!

I read about ACTUP and desperately wanted to find some long Covid/chronic illness support in a similar vein.

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I'm new here!

Hi, my name is Sazqwatch. I'm here because my new female friend has long covid and struggles with letting the symptoms define her daily life and thoughts. I want to understand better so I can be a better partner.

#MightyTogether

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Deliverance from OCD

Greetings,

May the peace and grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you!

My name is Kernimay. I was born and raised in Haiti. After College in 2018, I embarked on a journey where I was living alone in Ohio, far from family and friends. In a quest to discover myself, I began to know God himself. An aim to start loving myself has been transformed in the joy of finding the one by whom I am loved.

As the world was facing uncertainty with COVID-19, the best chapters of my live began. I had the opportunity to pen a collection of poems relating my journey as a new Christian and my struggles with a mental illness in a form of religious Obsession: Scrupulosity. I am so grateful that God delivered me and allowed me to experience Him on this level and to be able to share a part of my life with others.

As I have now self-published my poetry book: Brighter Days Ahead (available on amazon), I am looking for partnership with different congregations/organization to help me push this book to the public so it can be a blessing to others, in hope for them to know they are not alone in their walk and that God can deliver them from mental illness.

Hopefully,

Kernimay E. Fenelon

Brighter Days Ahead: A Book of Poems: Fénelon, Kernimay E.: 9798859532667: Amazon.com: Books

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Please help

I have long haul covid. Been sick since February. On medical leave and once again I feel my mental health taking a shot. I'm married to a wonderful and supportive woman. I am the rock in our marriage. I am having a hard time getting the courage I need to tell my wife that I am suffering greatly mentally. Although I'm sick physically I still have to be the strong one. My wife is sick with Lupus. She has taken good care of me but why am I having such a hard time telling her how I feel mentally? Any suggestions would be appreciated. Much love. #depre #ChronicIllness #BPD #MentalHealth

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Broken

Woke up in a "Why me?" state of mind today. Or, rather, a "Why us?" state of mind. My ex, my kid, and myself are, I think, pretty decent humans. We're flawed, like anyone else, but always tried to be good, according to our own compasses. We tried to never be hurtful, to support the people we cared about, and to leave the world a better place than we found it every day. For about 25 years, we were pretty good at it, I think.

And then, through circumstances we just couldn't control it fell apart. I never intended to become the monster I became, anymore than any of us intended for our lives to be upended during the COVID lockdown. We all thought we were doing the right, the appropriate, things to navigate increasingly difficult social and psychological circumstances. And everything still fell apart.

DBT teaches Radical Acceptance. The thing happened. Period. We don't have to like it, we don't have to make peace with it, but we have to accept that it happened. But some days, I wake up wondering "Why us?" We were lovely and happy and now we're broken, and will always be just a little bit sad. And we couldn't have done anything other than what we did.

Why us? Why couldn't we have just been a family and been happy? It's too late now. We'll never be that again. I will miss them for the rest of my life and I'll never have an answer to the question. And some days, it's really fucking hard to just have to accept that.

#Divorce #RadicalAcceptance #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

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I hate being broken

I'm on a trip with my 8th grade daughter and her school, and I want to do it all. However, being a fibromyalgia warrior and long-hauler of COVID, both have sucked the life out of me. I used to be so activr, but all this walking in DC is kicking my butt. I like hit 2 pm and my feet feel so swollen and my knees and hips lock up. We go from 8am-8pm. I've never been a whiner, but this is only day 2 of 4. I want to see and do all this with my daughter and her friends, but I just can't. 😥

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I'm new here!

Hi, my name is Strappy. I'm here because I've been living with Long Covid for 3 years and need support.

#MightyTogether

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Back to Church #Depression #MentalHealth #Anxiety

Two weeks ago, I made it back to church for the first time in years. I walked there alone, and listened from the foyer. I felt so peaceful and happy to be back. But at the same time, it was hard. My childhood friends have split off from me and made new friends, and I feel isolated. It was also hard because nobody had ever bothered to ask why I had stopped coming or invited me back. For those of you who haven’t read all my posts, while my family is very religiously active, my mom has a number of chronic illnesses and other undetermined health problems, so she hasn’t been able to go to church for over a decade. My sister has Asperger’s Syndrome as well as extreme anxiety and panic attacks, especially around people who don’t understand her. She has also not been to church for about the same amount of time. However, I still went with my brother throughout my childhood. Then he moved, and a few members I’ve known well practically my whole life offered to take me. Then covid hit, and meetings became remote. Like many, my already existing anxiety became worse during covid. Even once meetings became physical again, I didn’t go. There were a number of reasons, partly anxiety, partly previous bad experiences with members shortly before covid. Then I made it back for a while, but my anxiety became too bad, and I had developed this sense of fearing I would mess something up. I kept failing to make it to church, and the member who had been taking me stopped coming by to pick me up. That was a little more than two years ago. I hadn’t made it back until two weeks ago today. And like I said, the meeting was nice to listen to. But it was hard after that. People began walking out, and I hardly recognized any of them. I’ve become a nobody because of how many new members have moved in since I last came. I wasn’t sure ahere to go for Sunday school, so I kind of just stood around awkwardly hoping to see one of my friends. A few members I know briefly said hi to me, but for the most part, nobody even acknowledged I was there. I didn’t feel wanted. Fortunately, two of my friends found me and took me to the room where we were having Sunday school. On the way there, I passed a number of members I’ve known my whole life who didn’t even glance at me. Sunday school was pretty good, and I added to the discussion more than most of my friends, who tended to be sidetracked on their phones. While I enjoyed being back in church and feeling the goodness of it, it was hard to feel isolated from everyone. I was too depressed to make it back last week, and I stayed up too late trying to distract myself from depression last night. I want to go back, but I also want to feel wanted.

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