Disassociative

Hey so I’m kila the physical protector of the system. So one of our littles named Nia.. she’s 9. Was talking to a friend of ours about zodiacs.. he was telling her she’s a Capricorn and she’s an earth sign. Now she won’t stop talking to trees or plants.. and throws dirt around and says she controls it. We are divided on what to do. Either break her heart and tell her the truth or don’t and find another solution. I’m just tired of having to shower 5 times a day. #Disassociative #DissociativeIdentityDisorder #DID

What are you experienced dating people with a similarly severe disorder or someone who is knowledgeable on the disorder but doesn’t struggle with mental health? I worry that I can’t bond with someone deeply enough for a long term relationship that isn’t “broken” in a similar way that I am? But there’s also the concern that if we are both sick at the same time, how does that work for our relationship and eventually a family? I understand that love is love but I’m trying to think ahead as much as I can, so I’d love to hear your about experiences or viewpoints.

#Bipolar #Relationships #Mania #Disassociative #Bipolar1Disorder

I think I’m disassociated right now and like my pupils are really big. I thought it did that when I was manic but then I was told that that behavior and feeling is me disassociating. I don’t know exactly what it really is tho. I’m so confused and worried. I hate this feeling. I feel like not here and like I can do anything because it feels like I’m in a dream or something. I told my dad and he was like “are you on drugs” but I’m not. I just don’t understand this feeling and my pupils are really big and I’m wondering if that’s part of disassociating. so please help me. anyone. #Disassociative #dissociativeamnesia #dissociativedisorders #DissociativeIdentityDisorder #DissociationDisorders #DissociativeFugue #Dissociation #PTSD #PosttraumaticStressDisiroder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

I don’t know who I am right now but I don’t feel like I’m the host. I know we broke up last night with a partner of a year and best friend of 5 years, But I feel unaffected, like he was never even a big part of my life. I’m confused. I don’t feel sad, I don’t feel happy. I just don’t feel anything... I can’t even see myself in the mirror, if that makes sense?
I don’t understand what’s happening. I don’t feel right.

Today has been a little hectic, dealing with so many alter changes today.. I’m exhausted. One of my teen alters, Sarah, has been out and dancing around the house doing housework, while my adult male alter, Cade, has been trying to keep me company and stop me from breaking down. I feel another switch coming on but I’m just so tired... I feel like a crazy person...even crazier to wonder if that’s my thought or someone else’s.

She listens to the wind rustle outside her window.
The breeze catches her hair and tickles her ears with a slight blast of cold air.
She looks outside her window to see the leaves changing to beautiful fall colors.
She catches the light in her eyes.
She welts up.
She curls into a ball weeping so loudly it echos through the neighborhood.
She's a prisoner.
Trapped inside looking out.
Wanting to feel freedom again.

#MightyPoets #Depression #Anxiety #MentalHealth #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Emotions #Trapped #Prisoner #MentalHealthAwareness #Disassociative #Poetry #Poem #poet