emotions

Nighttime wasn't a good time for me growing up because that's when a majority of the #SexualAbuse occurred. So I guess it makes sense to feel a sense of anxiety and apprehension before going to bed. My #PTSD also interferes with my sleep habits. Not to mention that I typically get up early any way. The nightmares and flashbacks that wake me up prevent me from feeling relaxed. I am on medication for the nightmares but they still happen. Also having #BipolarDisorder complicates my sleep cycle. When I'm manic I can't and don't want to sleep. When I'm depressed, that's all I want to do. I can't tell yet if I'm going into a depressed episode but so far I've had no energy and have been sleeping a lot more. I feel somewhat sad and down but not as bad as usual. Maybe I can work my way out of it before it gets worse. My fear is that I'll emotionally spiral which I try to prevent. Trauma memories lead to crying spells or they'll upset my #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder which causes me to overreact anyways. Living with three mental illnesses is absolutely draining. And it seems like all the therapy and medication can't control them sometimes. What can I do to better manage my mental health and get better sleep? I appreciate all of you and hope things are going well. I believe in you so thanks for believing in me. Stay safe and reach out for help if you need to.

#Abuse #Survivor #Sleep #Nightmares #Flashbacks #Emotions

intensity=abandonment=neglect=needs going unmet=desperately trying to get our needs met #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Emotions

I wish I could just be ok and at peace with the horrible feelings instead of wallowing in them. I wish I could just accept them as my normal. #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Emotions #feelings

I hate reacting so strongly to stupid things. I want to stop because it just adds to the list of reasons why I hate myself. How do I stop this before it's too late? The emotional reactivity I mean. I know part of it is BPD but I feel like part of it is me. I can't list any reasons as to why I hate myself but I guess my emotional reactivity is one reason.

#selfhatred #BPD #Emotions #Relationships

What helps you change your perspective or a kind reminder when things are hard?

Thanks! #Positivity #positive #happy #Happiness #Joy #Emotions #Journal #Grattitude #Acceptance #Trying #coping #reminders #Selflove

My emotions tend to be all over the place before a major mood episode. Does anyone else experience this? I feel like it could be depression coming on but then again, I’ve been wrong before. It could be mania it’s just that I’ve been experiencing more depressed symptoms. I don’t want it to stop me from doing things. Sometimes people don’t understand how hard #BipolarDisorder is. It’s an emotional roller coaster. Having #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder which already includes emotional instability doesn’t help. Not to mention #PTSD which gets triggered by the mood episodes. What else can I do?

#MentalHealth #MightyQuestions #Emotions #BipolarDepression