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I don’t have OCD personally but I have Anxiety GAD and I came across this while trying to find why I’m super anxious than normal and obsessed with my breath. I will feel so dump and weak like I can’t control it and it’s taking over my day and making me feel miserable like I can’t take a deep breath in and then I panic and it cycles and I’m constantly monitoring my breath where it doesn’t go automatic like it should :( please help sometimes even after meditation or deep breathing I still don’t feel good. Lately going to the gym or exercise is the only way my body goes to automatic. And I’m constantly checking in with myself. This happened after a cold and stuffy nose the lack of being able to breathe well and sleep at night made me experience this, I’m better now but the feeling and thinking stayed, I feel so silly and dumb it’s never happened like that before with a cold or with my anxiety and now it’s been 2 weeks or so and I’m still suffering.
I want to be positive and break free from it but I’m really struggling.

#anxiety #ocd #help #panic #anxietyattacks #panicattacks #anxious #sad #upset #miserable #frustrated #dumb

I don’t have OCD personally but I have Anxiety GAD and I came across this while trying to find why I’m super anxious than normal and obsessed with my breath. I will feel so dump and weak like I can’t control it and it’s taking over my day and making me feel miserable like I can’t take a deep breath in and then I panic and it cycles and I’m constantly monitoring my breath where it doesn’t go automatic like it should :( please help sometimes even after meditation or deep breathing I still don’t feel good. #Anxiety #OCD #help #panic #AnxietyAttacks #PanicAttacks #anxious #sad #Upset #miserable #frustrated #dumb

I feel so dumb and stupid :( silly but I get this weird thing where I am constantly observing my breath and taking somewhat short breaths I breathe in deeply to try to regulate my breathing but it’s like I forget how to breath and it’s really ruining my days, I just want to go back to normal or be normal, I hate anxiety :( please help. 🙏 Anxiety is constantly being there and I want it to go away, I feel so alone and silly I can’t control this as well as I would like to or as I normally would, I also get this weird thing if I fixate on blinking it’s like I forget how to blink and instead of my body doing it automatically you become awkwardly aware of it and overdo it or under do it. I want to become less aware of these things and just let my body function normally, not ruminate or overthink and then feel too much. #Anxiety #hatethis #Silly #dumb #feelingdumb #pleasehelp #Annoying #shmptoms #body #Breathing #automatic #tooaware #Depression

I’m usually lucky 🍀 and sleep 😴 quite well but after a cold an hyper focus on my breathing 😮‍💨from a stuffy nose thankfully I’m over my cold now. But I still have that body protective thing I was doing where I was so focused on my breathing it’s a silly dumb anxiety thing but it’s like you forget to breathe and instead of doing it automatically you are doing it short ish sometimes focusing on the breath is said to calm you down in meditations spiritually but for me it’s the opposite. Any tips for getting to sleep, I’m trying to listen to calming music and affirmations but it’s not working as well as it usually would. I’m like half resting but conscious and if I sleep deeply like REM sleep it’s very little. Please help :( I feel so dumb and annoyed at myself. Sometimes even during the day I have that thing too like checking with myself with my breathing 😮‍💨 and it’s becoming an annoying new habit I just want to function normally and stop the silliness which I didn’t have this annoying thing until recently. It’s like yes my body is trying to protect me in its own way with anxiety but I don’t need this. #Anxiety #Breathing #dumb #Silly #Anxiety #shame #barriers #struggles #advice #themighty #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Support #help #Listener #Selfcompassion #feelingdumb #feelingsilly #Selfacceptance #confused #bodysymptoms #sensations #Hyperfocus #Meditation #tired #Insomnia

It's so frustrating to attempt to write down your thoughts and then realise that it doesn't make sense especially as I am super passionate about writing in the first place. Writing this paragraph will probably take a long time too. I miss the days where the words would just flow seamlessly. I used to be praised for the way I write and now my brain feels like an empty box. #dumb

#Depression #dumb #worthless #Worthlessness

I have been dealing with #Anxiety and #Depression since the age of 7...that makes it for 32 years now! One would think I'm supposed to be able to handle it by now..right?? I'm at least supposed to know the "DO'S" and the "DON'T'S" and to be able to use the skills I have been taught during the 30 Mental Hospital hospitalizations I have been through or maybe..just maybe 1 of the many Psychologists I saw in the last 20 years of my life should of been able to help me???

Am I that #dumb or am I really just as #worthless as my ex boyfriend constantly told me? Most of the time..I'm the person others turn to for advice. I have made a whole study about my multiple mental illness diagnosis. I know every single aspect of OCD, PTSD, ADD, BPD, General Anxiety Disorder and my primary diagnosis which is Bipolar Disorder 2. But for the first time in a very long time..if ever, have I been so very low and scared and confused.

I have never asked for anyone other than my Psychiatrists and Psychologists help..so please try and understand that what I am doing right now..is quite difficult for me, a "1st Timer" at seeking advice.

Regards
Ruzanné
#Anxiety #Depression #suicidal