Emptiness
What to do these feelings...? I haven't got social relationships and the most of the time I'm at home alone and don't know what to do. I often feel and suffer from something emptiness and helplessness inside me and the outer world. I feel that not mean even whatever happen. I just want to things pass... the whole life. Perhaps I'll never be happy. I don't enjoy anything and I don't know how to tie my mind with something. Intermittently I have success in it, but after then it seems it was just a distraction and everything lost their values. I know the trouble that I haven't got goals. But more precisely I have that goals, just can't reach it. I know that I have to find meaning in life and come out from this isolation, but don't know how. I'm 29 years old and never had a GF. I were at a dozen of psychologist and psychiatrist, but none of them worked.
How to fill this inner void once and for all? I see that chocolate and other sweet things is not working...
#Emptiness #helplessness #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #Loneliness