helplessness

What to do these feelings...? I haven't got social relationships and the most of the time I'm at home alone and don't know what to do. I often feel and suffer from something emptiness and helplessness inside me and the outer world. I feel that not mean even whatever happen. I just want to things pass... the whole life. Perhaps I'll never be happy. I don't enjoy anything and I don't know how to tie my mind with something. Intermittently I have success in it, but after then it seems it was just a distraction and everything lost their values. I know the trouble that I haven't got goals. But more precisely I have that goals, just can't reach it. I know that I have to find meaning in life and come out from this isolation, but don't know how. I'm 29 years old and never had a GF. I were at a dozen of psychologist and psychiatrist, but none of them worked.

How to fill this inner void once and for all? I see that chocolate and other sweet things is not working...

#Emptiness #helplessness #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #Loneliness

Im at a loss here. It seems no matter how hard I try to put it into words no one seems to understand it. Some say I’m exaggerating or actually recklessly for attention but in reality i have no control over my actions when I’m going through a manic episode. I wish I could save money but when I’m in an episode I seem to forget that I have responsibilities. I wish I was able to complete simple household chores without having to keep reminding myself to finish my task first and then move onto another. I wish I could be in a relationship without self sabotaging myself. The thing no one seems to understand is I don’t purposely do these things to make it difficult for myself. Often times I don’t even remember anything I do or say after a manic episode. I want to be “normal” but the harder I try to reach that goal the more it difficult it becomes. I wish I could get them to understand. Why doesn’t anyone understand? #helplessness #lost

The republicans and potus are murderers. And I can’t do anything about it. I can’t only reach out to friends and family and cry and play video games and cry and practice self care and cry and lie in bed and cry.

I’m a survivor of childhood trauma resulting in CPTSD & now this.

Telehealth session with my therapist on Tuesday. I’m having a hard time believing this is actually happening. I don’t even think Trump wants us to die. I don’t think that thought even gets that far. Doesn’t compute. His beliefs are rock solid, beyond reproach in his own mind. All these people who offer up sound solutions or even try to present an alternative are therefore not only being unheard, but never even get past the wall in his head. Again, they don’t compute because the information simply isn’t getting through.

As such, don’t waste your energy trying.

As far as the rest of the GOP: surely some of them recognize the importance of the USPS? Even if a healthy USPS would mean more mail in votes, and nobody thrives on voter suppression like republicans. They want Trump to be reelected for their own status quo...doing what’s right for the American people be damned.

I’ve signed petitions, contacted senators and our governor and our AG before she was governor, countless news outlets...I’ve never felt so helpless except maybe when I was a child.

So these are the 3:44 in the morning thoughts and feelings of someone (me) who needs to accept what I can’t change.

I miscarried and even though I’ve stopped bleeding I’m still sad, and weirdly feel empty. I know it was early on and so many women have it happen tragically later in pregnancy but I can’t help but feel sad. I feel like I am empty and I’m still emotional even though my hormones are stabilizing. #helplessness #Anxiety #emotional #Depression #ChronicIlless

What do you do when you have the most minimal dental coverage but need much much more #scared #Poverty #Fear }#BiliaryAtresia #IfYouFeelHopeless #DistractMe #BiliaryAtresia Is #helplessness

But Jesus looked at them and said, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible."
Matthew 19:26

It took me 8 years to get my master's degree and my professional license. I worked for 8 years in my field. I was at work one day and then not. I found myself applying for FMLA and when the 6 weeks that were approved were over I quit. Eight years of my life, work, heartache, and money down the drain. That sure made my depression worse.

Here I am over eight months later. I had my counseling session yesterday. My therapist made the comment that a helper has to accept their helplessness. I'm a trained and licensed helper. It goes against my very nature to accept the fact that I can't help everyone. But to be able to help others I must accept that I can't help everyone. I'm not sure I can do that. How does a helper accept that they can't help everyone?

#Depression #helpingothers #nocontrol #TheBible #Godisincontrol #helplessness