monday

I'm exhausted and tired of thinking of what to do. My resources are limited but something inside keeps wanting to figure out the impossible and it's exhausting

#helplessness
#exhausted
#monday
#CheckInWithMe

#monday

Good morning all! It's Monday morning around 6am here in NY. I slept better than I expected so that's a big plus! I still feel numb over the divorce papers that my narcissist husband served me with last Tuesday. I realized I need to journal about it as I seem to be staying stuck in that feeling of uncertainty. I have already allowed myself to mourn the loss of my husband but I haven't really allowed myself to grieve over my future. I am down right scared about the future. I have a hundred questions and thoughts running through my mind as I'm an overthinker. I think I am still in awe that over the entire relationship. I played my part. I am an addict in recovery. I'm going on 2 years July 2nd 2024. So my addiction played a role in this. However, I still can't get over the fact that I allowed him to mess with my mental state with his lies and cheating ways. It really took a toll on me for awhile.
I'm currently on disability at the moment for my bipolar but I am thinking of getting a full time job. I don't think I can make it alone with just disability and a part time job. The bills are coming in and I still haven't made a budget. It's like everything is so surreal.
Here's to today as we only have the present moments. It's up to me to decide if I want to sit in my shit or get up and start my day. I choose to get up and enjoy the day! For once I have a choice in my life and it feels amazing 😍 #NarcissisticPersonalityDisorder #BipolarDisorder #monday #Smiling

I'M feeling the #sad tonight. With the time change has effected me. I'M still weaking up at the same time. I'm just wishing they could just have one time. I start feeling down during the night time #Depression I'M not looking forward to #Winter time and snow and ice.

I just realized on #monday i forgot about one of my afthernoon zoom groups. It just sliped my mind. I felt so bad. IT's not like me to forget. But hey it's okay it's life and that happends sometimes. No bug deal.

I feel like i only get DM from Trolls on this APP. From dudes who are looking for a wife or anyone really looking to cheat you out of money.

#TheMighty #MightyTogether